Kinda rambling here, but I've been feeling something good and I don't want to lose it. I'm not positive yet if my moods are stable on a general basis, and I'm hoping that where I'm at today will stay with me, that I've actually stepped up onto a new moral level and somehow learned a valuable life lesson.

Things have been eating at me at work a lot for a while, and I've been trying to find ways, short of going postal, to solve them. I don't know what happened today, but I sorta snapped...in a good way. It seemed perfectly plausible to be entirely open about everything I felt. Of course I didn't have to be, and I managed to get a lot of work done, but I feel if the opportunity ever presents itself in the future, I can just say whatever's on my mind. I just hope I don't wake up tomorrow, returned to my little cocoon of social phobia and acquire new sets of footprints for my already tattered clothing.

I feel the most valuable lesson is to not care if people don't like me. I worry I'm bothering people if I talk to them or even that they just don't like the way I look or smell or talk, and the inhibition paralyzes me. But I've noticed yesterday and today that not only am I more comfortable with myself, regardless what others think, but that I've been more accepting of things I'd otherwise cringe at. I even considered covering an Oasis song.

Well...only if I really had to.