Hey guys.

So, before you bother asking-

"Shore Leave pt.2- Welcome Delfin" is well in the works.

But, guess what I'm stuck on?

A blowjob scene.

Yeah, I've quickly realized that sex scenes are not my forte. I didn't come into this writer business with sex scenes in mind, and certainly wouldn't have wanted to be writing sex scenes (or, ahem, MATURE scenes) this far into it.

After this scene is done, the story is more or less mapped out.

Welcome Delfin is the climax of the story.

Isthia and Gregory's daughter is just a closure piece. Up until she's born, the story is mapped out. At that moment and afterwards, it's so vanilla and calm that I often question whether or not I should include it in the story.

But then it's like- the whole story's been building up to this moment, so why back out?

Well, Lost at Sea (and even more so, LAS2-Good Tidings) have been a personal reflection.

With a few years between chapters, shouldn't the tone and writing styles be blatant at this point?

I wanted closure. And I complain a lot. And disappear a lot. And be moody a lot. But really, in hindsight I wish that this whole era had been kept private and unpublished.

You hear this all the time, but I DO want to finish the story. It's an obligation, sure, but it's also a chapter of my life I've wanted to close for years but got too cocky and wanted to resurrect. At this point, I just want to end the series so that it's gone for good. A reboot sounded so good back when it first appeared. But the story written these days is from someone who finally made it through the same loneliness, delusion, and suspension of reality that was bound to hitting that point during the first few chapters, as well as the whole first story.

I'm not denouncing anything. Going back, nothing would be changed. Even the moments I'm more or less not proud of. They were written with that current mindset and reflected changing attitudes and mentality. I loved writing "Lost at Sea". I loved writing every chapter of Good Tidings. I loved writing every story I've ever posted. But man, they were never written by the same person. Never. Even the ones produced within weeks of one another- like reliable and popular artists and authors would often do- weren't written by the same person.

Life is all about learning and changing your mood. Transforming like Gregory. When I wrote LAS it was my fantasy to leave my life and join another. And many people responded positively to that. So when it came to LAS2, Good Tidings, it was more a longing feeling. Not a longing to go back, but a longing to be there and set everything right before setting off. And really, this current chapter is NOTHING but that! It's just that I can't get past ONE. FREAKING. SCENE.

I knew the method behind making an erotic scene or appealing to the audience's best interests, but man- I really don't like erotic scenes. Even during Lost at Sea I copped out on the final climactic sex scene (IMO). I went for erotica because it felt much easier- just put someone's dick in a pussy, a dick in an asshole, or a dick in a dick (those stories do exist) and you automatically have followers.

Your support has kept me going, maybe even kept me alive. I dunno. All I know is that reading through year old comments and messages from members gets me going. When Lost At Sea was originally written I wrote from the heart. Good Tidings is all the support of members who wait patiently to see more. And it's greatly appreciated. Really :) I would've stopped long ago had it not been for support from the readers to continue.

This story will continue, and it will end. And really, if I do write more, it won't be FA material. Like I've said, I don't want to be considered an erotic novelist. Mainly because, IMO, I don't do erotic literature quite right. My mind wanders too much, I'm enslaved by formula, and erotica rarely changes from story to story.

But thank you all. You all have better patience than most do. I'll be around, I'll be practicing and writing, but can't promise a posting.