I know I have no place to say anything but I've noticed a disturbing trend among furries.

If you have a mental illness or suspect you do, seek help. Doctors are there for a reason. Taking medication may seem frightening or you may simply not want to take it but its there to help you. I used to be afraid of medications myself. The side effects can sometimes be intimidating or unpleasant but you have to ask yourself if dealing with the illness is better than the meds. In my case, my illness seemed less frightening than the medication I would be put on. I had heard several horror stories of the side effects or the meds not even working for my illness.

I had years of pain, years of lost friends, years of loneliness and a broken relationship to show for my stubbornness in seeking help. As I have stated in previous journals, I have biploar 2. My particular case deals with anxiety, depression and explosive rage. It was so bad when I was younger that I went off on anyone for anything. Now a days the rage has gotten more manageable but the anxiety has made things really hard.

Before I was put on medication I would have daily 'freak-outs' where I would simply run away from home for a while or just blow up at my mate and room mate. I was unpleasant to be around and didn't realize my condition was hurting others simply by them being around me. It took several years of patient prodding on my mate's part to even get me on meds to take care of it.

You may not realize it but all of the unpleasant behaviors you exhibit may be a result of your mental illness and not taking meds. Taking meds could mean the difference between having friends or not for a lot of people. Meds could probably improve several lives if people would just take them.

In closing, its not worth it to ever ignore a mental illness. It could get worse over time or your friends could end up losing you to suicide. Please, for those who care about you, seek help.