well Its been a while since I made a Journal but I need to it will help me out a lot. I ruined a good friendship I think and now I am crying hard wishing that I was dead I guess things are bad here fur a fur but I just want to say I love u all and always will I wont do nothing stupid I promise U all but I am very upset and hurting its manily his fault not mine but I take it like a fur I guess I wish things could make me happy I hope u all are here for each other and I love u all and always will hehe