So here we are again. You reading my journal and me with nothing much other than excuses about why I haven't been posting art. For those that've stuck around, you guys are awesome and I love every one of you, and for those that've just shown up or have been waiting on promised art, I don't deserve the right to apologize.

I generally prefer to keep my personal business to myself simply because if I let everyone hear me bitch about my life I'd feel like one of those people that get online just throw pity parties and you can't shower enough to get that grimy feel out of your skin. However, I really feel like I should get over myself and let people know what's going on at least every so often so I don't get strung up from the nearest tall tree.

And so a brief history....

For a while now, even back while I was tackling my commission list, I've been suffering artistically from art block and a whole manner of related issues, and it's been showing in my turn around times for commissions and all my promised art. This caused a long stint after my last journal in which I honestly didn't draw much if at all, and the feelings have only gotten worse as time progressed.

Then some time after the first of the year my father sprung a job on me in the form of labor for an excavation company working ten hour days burying conduit and cable up around Dulles airport. My current residence puts me two hours away from work and to make it in on time we have to leave town at 4:30 in the morning (I get up around 3:30 to get ready). If you add those hours up you realize I end up with about four hours in the evening to shower, eat, and relax for a bit before heading to bed at a decent time to be ready for the next day. This left me with even less desire to do much of anything as it's both a strain mentally and physically. My three days off are usually reserved for other things. Generally stuff that I'm forced to take part in simply by living here with my parents.

Things are still progressing though. I'm looking to enrolling into an online art school in July. Hopefully that'll help answer many of the questions I have and help me ask the right ones I need to progress further. It's going to be stressful though due to my limited time but to me it seems worth the reward.

I'm still a little iffy on my drawing drive despite reading some thought provoking journals this past month. Specifically  wolfy-nail's Art Blocks journal found here. If you haven't read it you should definitely go do that, it really put a lot of stuff into perspective for me. Anyway this brings me to the last part of my journal which is something that always seemed to help motivate me to get shit done. That is of course, STREAMING! I've got a lot of things I really want to work on and despite fearing what you guys might think after seeing how little I've done I don't see why you guys shouldn't get to watch and possibly enjoy.

So if you're willing pop by my stream found here and have a chat.