The following is a journal about my sad feelings and insecurities. Please ignore if you don't want to deal with it

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I dunno, I been sitting here unable to sleep, feeling lonely and wondering if I had the courage to try some of them, or if it would even be a good idea. The idea honestly terrifies me, cause its taken years for me to get to a point where I am not horribly shy on the internet, but dang I just feel like I need to do something or it will just get harder and harder to find anyone as I get older. But maybe I would find some big girl or guy who I really got along with and liked fat reptiles and things as much as I do.

Eh just kind of lonely rambling really. I really dunno if such a thing is for me, when the goal from the start is to get together. I kinda think these things should develop from friendships, and yet, I dunno if I am going to have enough time in my life for such a thing to happen with my only socialization being online.