[Edit: This is supposed to be talking about my issues, not some sort of "issues with the community." I just don't get to that for like a paragraph, but... yeah, it's not as emoragey as it sounds at first, I promise. =P]

Been away from FA for almost 9 months now. It's... hard coming back. I miss furries, miss being involved in the community, but whenever I'm here, the nastiness of others keeps coming back to mind, even when it's not new drama. I'll never forget the lovely furs I've met here, but I'm also finding it difficult to forget the fur who unsolicitously told me he wanted to roughly fuck me, then told me he was disgusted with me when I asked him to please refrain from comments like that. I still remember the 19-year old condescension of the fur with whom I tried to have a civil debate on trans issues... and the assisted passive-aggression from one of his sycophants (wanted or not, I didn't stick around to find out). I still remember the militant social justice warrior who polarized a social issue and vilified anybody who didn't agree with his exact position (he was so absurdly adamant in his split-mind thinking that he was taken aback when someone simply assumed he was a troll). I still remember all the dumb, hateful, stupid shit that I've encountered over the years, ugh.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this is a "furry problem," or something specific to FA. I mean god, it's a social site on the internet, of course this stuff happens. I've always found calling drama "a furry problem" to be a silly (and easy) way to excise the subtlety from the situation. I just didn't expect it to be this difficult.

I dunno, maybe it's just that getting a bit older has left me with less patience for this sort of thing than I used to have. I'm not really sure.

Not sure how many people read my journals after such a long absence, but I'd love to hear about other people's experiences. C'mon, we can all be sane together. <3