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16 years ago
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Journaling
I'm sitting here listening to Shiller by Ratatat [amazing song] and I keep getting these images of being in the stars or on the bottom of the ocean. I have this feeling of wanting to escape from my body so badly. I just want to let Aky out and be free finally. I just want to escape for a day and be so utterly free. I'd give anything to roam the woods and feel the grass beneath my paws again. I'd love to hunt down a deer and tear open the carcass and taste the blood. I have this primal urge and it's not going away. This urge to feast and roam the land.
I get these images in my head and I have the distinct feeling I've been there. I see sunsets from mountains in the Rockies. I see sunrises from atop a pine tree. I see the vast void of the galaxy around this planet. I've touched stars and seen things that I describe to other people and they think I'm crazy. I have memories that no one else remembers. I wish someone was there to tell me I'm not so utterly alone in this world. I just want that. I want someone who will be a travelling partner. A companion for me to tell stories to, to catch food for, to cuddle with. I want someone to share my memories and thoughts and mind with.
This yearning inside of me is so bad this time I'm about to bawl. I want to cry because I know I've been to these places but no one else remembers them. I can see a sunset, one this earth has never seen. The stars dot the sky while the last rays of sun grasp onto this planet. The air is so clean and clear. Everything is perfect and wild. The wild is where I belong. I don't belong in the world of humans. This 'spirit' inside of me wants to be free. I want to be free and elsewhere. This close, backstabbing world of the human civilization is not what I'm meant for. I'm a solitary person who would love to live in a cottage in the woods. With my own garden and my own little family of the creatures in the woods around me.
I want just that. I want to live in a cottage in the woods where human civilization has no grasp on me.
This world is so tiring.
Commissions: Open - badge only.
Trades: Closed
Journaling
I'm sitting here listening to Shiller by Ratatat [amazing song] and I keep getting these images of being in the stars or on the bottom of the ocean. I have this feeling of wanting to escape from my body so badly. I just want to let Aky out and be free finally. I just want to escape for a day and be so utterly free. I'd give anything to roam the woods and feel the grass beneath my paws again. I'd love to hunt down a deer and tear open the carcass and taste the blood. I have this primal urge and it's not going away. This urge to feast and roam the land.
I get these images in my head and I have the distinct feeling I've been there. I see sunsets from mountains in the Rockies. I see sunrises from atop a pine tree. I see the vast void of the galaxy around this planet. I've touched stars and seen things that I describe to other people and they think I'm crazy. I have memories that no one else remembers. I wish someone was there to tell me I'm not so utterly alone in this world. I just want that. I want someone who will be a travelling partner. A companion for me to tell stories to, to catch food for, to cuddle with. I want someone to share my memories and thoughts and mind with.
This yearning inside of me is so bad this time I'm about to bawl. I want to cry because I know I've been to these places but no one else remembers them. I can see a sunset, one this earth has never seen. The stars dot the sky while the last rays of sun grasp onto this planet. The air is so clean and clear. Everything is perfect and wild. The wild is where I belong. I don't belong in the world of humans. This 'spirit' inside of me wants to be free. I want to be free and elsewhere. This close, backstabbing world of the human civilization is not what I'm meant for. I'm a solitary person who would love to live in a cottage in the woods. With my own garden and my own little family of the creatures in the woods around me.
I want just that. I want to live in a cottage in the woods where human civilization has no grasp on me.
This world is so tiring.
Commissions: Open - badge only.
Trades: Closed
Maybe it's like a 1000 piece puzzle set that they ship you like 5 pieces at a time of.
Kinda reminds me of a short story that I planned to write, in the (rare) event that I'd stop procrastinating. Some magic beast was feared by some town just because he was different yet intelligent (and apparently people in general don't like intelligent beings that aren't like they are...) There was some kid who ventured out near its home with some friends and the place was supposed to be haunted (at least, according to their parents: they were more or less trying to prevent them from associating with the beast.) A growl scares them all off but the one kid returns later out of curiosity. After a little dialog they become best friends. Later on the town finds out about their friendship and try to convince him that they're going to overcome their fear and become friends with it as well. Later the kid finds out that they really just wanted to kill it. So, in an attempt to keep on living (since there weren't many of them left) the beast siphons his soul into the kid where it lies dormant - though the kid doesn't know this since it was a surprise even to him. The corpse was enough to convince everyone that the beast was dead. Kid grows up having these dreams about the beast, which are influenced heavily by the soul's presence with him. They get properly re-introduced and... well, I haven't thought of the rest.
But you know... a fictional situation like this does make one wonder... ever think that maybe these mythical creatures went extinct, but shared their souls with those that kept an open heart and mind? Maybe there are a lot of people out there sharing souls with them that don't even know it.
(wow massive text. But I don't often talk to anyone that might share these feelings. Now, go play :) )