I'm alright kinda

Have anything good for lunch? :D

I could use more oatmeal creme pies and spanish rice right now lol

I'm on if you wanna bitch.

Probably gonna try and sleep, typing on the ipad makes me just wanna throw it at the wall. Bitching will commence at 10:00, prepare your eardrums.

I know those feelings...
Trusting people can be actually tricky and hard these days sweetheart... .__.

I guess you just need to know the person really good so you can start fully trust them...
And still.. you must keep your foot always behind so whenever shit happens you won't get hurt much...
It's always for safety...
Trust grows with time and patience along with the friendship...

x)

If you ever need to talk.. you can note me or so...
I'd gladly listen :)
I like to help out ♥ ♥~

Trust has just gradually become a no-no with online friendships, the internet is fickle and when people are countries apart its easy for relationships to turn into nothing at the blink of an eye. Even ones you think will last.

Thanks, i appreciate the response and kindness. :) i dont like venting, and find it hard to respond to comments about these kind of things. But getting other people's impressions and a sense of who keeps an eye on me is really nice.

Yeah... At this point, basically it's a sort of ''luck'' to fidn the right people and give them your most honest trust...
And efforts... Its funny you're from UK.. I have the same time zone as you xD!
Even tho i'm from Portugal. Ahahah

I can really relate with this journal, I've been feeling like this for months...

Unsure of how people think of me, constantly wondering, depressed and kind of lost on where im going or what im doing.
It sucks even more when a lot of close friends are either not talking to you or act like you're not even interesting to be around.

I've been working on it so hard but every day... some are better than others at least.

BUT I wanted to reach out, let you know you're not alone! I may not know or understand all your circumstances but from one person who is going through something similar to another, I don't dislike you for expressing yourself, im happy that you wrote this in an effort to get it out of your system. It can be so hard to express yourself, especially in such a public forum.

All I can say is take it one day at a time and I hope you can find your way up and out of where you are right now soon <3

Doesn't hurt to lend an extra ear every now and then. Not sure if you would really be willing but I don't mind listening to anything you might have to say.

I can't offer any good advice, but I'll send some hugs and positive thoughts your way! ♥

If you play games like mobas and stuff I definitely enjoying playing a game or two with you. <:

I actually have no opinion on you since I haven't gotten to know you personally, but I am gonna guess you're a p kool kat.

Lynx's ears are always open =)

About to go to work...*sad trombone*

do you wanna talk to someone that will listen to all your problems?(regardless of why they happen) cause for me that helps me sleep and im willing to do it for you. my skype is on my page if you want it.

You have plenty of support here. More than a lot of people. Feel happy about that?
If not just that, perhaps the comments above, the comments below, and of course mine, will raise your spirits~

Also fav bombed your gallery of everything that I liked, that didn't already have a fav on it.

Sounds kind of like what Lincoln used to do. Write a letter full of emotion and anger, sleep on it, then not send it the next morning after the senses have cooled down.
Sometimes you just need to vent to yourself. Think of it as a form of meditation.

Sometimes I get so sad that I go to sleep. It's a mistake every time. Eventually I'll have enough regret in me to do something better about it.

those feelings sound all too familiar. I used to have one friend I'd vent to, but he was usually more likely to yell back at me to just get over it as though i had some magic switch in my brain to shut that crap off

I know how you feel doll.

I had an episode just a few hours earlier where I didn't want to continue doing what I wanted. I refused to even look at the soaps I've made and told my mate to just go outside and give them away. It wasn't pretty. And the only other person I could have talked to doesn't really put their insight into anything.

It's hard to let people in that won't fuck with your head/heart. Trust me, I don't have very many people that I can talk to.

I'm doing pretty aright, just got back from watching How to Train Your Dragon 2, fed my hype and toothless love~


Im here if you need a person to vent at or talk in general. I know i'm just a random person but you have my support~

Jaaae~ you know you can Skype me anytime right? You silly dog. *petpets* Hope you're doing ok~

I know exactly what you mean. I've been especially weary of letting new people I've met on /here/ "get to know me." Because on one hand it's like "What if this person suddenly gets uncomfortably attached with me out of the blue?" (it's happened to me before -_-), and on the other hand it's like "Well, is this person actually trying to be a friend because they like ME, or they just think my 'sona is cute?" -3-

Meh, meeting new people on the internet in any fashion is like playing Russian Roulette, alas. You're always taking at least a little bit of a chance, and too many people abuse the anonymity and convenience of the net to use people up and spit them out, or otherwise turn them off like a TV show they're tired of watching if they get "bored."

Anyhow, I won't pretend I "know" you in any way, shape, of form past the fact you were really easy and fun to work with on that one commission I got from you. But if you ever want to shoot the breeze about anything, feel free to hit me up on Skype sometime if you use that (TenkaiPandurr). I'm about as laidback as people get, and I try to be a good listener to friend. So people venting about their woes/problems doesn't scare me off or make me go into "deer caught in headlights" mode like it does some. X3

Hang in there, in any case. You seem like a nice enough guy. =3

weary=wary. Eesh I'm tired. 7-7 shifts on Friday the 13th = tired pandas. -_-

I've been feeling pretty much that for years now. But anyway, I don't really know what people are supposed to think of you. To me and most other creepy strangers here, you're just a dude drawing stuff we like to watch. There's not much more than that.

I dunnow about your friends tho, obviously. Perhaps you're an annoying bastard. Can't tell.

This was the useful comment of the day. take it away.

I used to get into that slump weekly..so I know what you mean on that.
I cant tell you for anyone else but as for what I think of you as a watcher. I look up to you as an artist.
otherwise don't know you personally but you seem cool :3

You know I always would speak to you, suto. But since you became ..popular?..it was hard to converse with you :c and I miss the days where we had fun chatting. You know I would never judge you, your whining or feelings.
I'm still here <3 with a lot more energy and spirit than I've had in a long time.
Hugs n' nice thoughts from Denmark <3

I wish I had seen this post earlier x.x. I hope things have gotten better (I did see your "Thank you" journal follow-up so I assume your feeling better? Even if but a little?) Anywho, I'v been there alot, still go there lol, now, RL hybrid..joke..things(?) aside, I find you to be an enjoyable person, and I highly doubt people are going to dislike you for the journal. If people disliked people because of something they've posted, a few must not like my poem from how dark it is x3, however Your a likeable person thus far as I can tell. Besides, typing this sort of stuff out can sometime help put your mind to ease ever so slightly.

Your art is great, you're talented, you are young and have a life ahead for which you can plan and dream!
Just need to develop your self-knowledge and self-confidence. That's the key!
You have many supporters too, everywhere around the world!

Your feelings aren't so unrelatable (as other comments here agree) but when it's hard for you to make new relationships you can end up going nowhere. Figuring out how to be productive (achieving something everyday and working hard towards your goals) can make people feel incredibly satisfied with life at the end of the day. From the documentaries I've seen - long lasting and true happiness comes from helping others, not friends but strangers and in real life. For me it takes years to get a new friend, I need chemistry and that's so rare which helps nothing.

Having said that, I have a hard time getting closer to people and don't want to talk to anyone but still feel sickingly lonely so much of the time. I still don't do the above that I've mentioned except I know I need to start small with what I can manage that day and try to get a little further each day. When I hit rock bottom I just need to cope and start over.

Anyway ... I love your work. A lot. I love your style. I never commented on your stuff because you seemed so far but being a fan of your work of course I wish you the best as a person. Undoubtedly many others who also don't comment do feel the same, even though maybe it feels like an empty void.

I have steam/skype if you want to chat, I don't expect anything but just want to offer what I can.
Sorry this is late - I would have responded sooner if I didn't assume "vent" meant Ventrilo. :x

I hope things have been shining for you since this journal. (I am just very late here)
I have been very blank!