For the first time.
11 years ago
Waaaaassssup Another journal entry.
In my life I'm gonna cry my self to sleep. To think just last night this very same person almost had heart's literally floating around my head. and now I'm going to cry me self to sleep knowing I'll never have a chance with him. cause I was too late. by three day's I was too late to nervous to tell him I love him that I was too late for someone else to step in my way shoving me to the ground.
I saw him and instantly fell in love. but I was so nervouse to tell him so. it took me a while just to say Hi to him. and the more I talked to him. the more and more I loved him. and then I finally told him I loved him. the first time I told him. he showed me a picture of his Boy friend.
I will never stop loving him. But If only I would of built the gut's to say something sooner. then maybe I wouldn't be crying my self to sleep because of a picture he sent me of him and his boy friend.
I'm in a corner of my room tear's running down my face knowing. I'll never be with him. no matter how much I try. he will always love someone else.
The broken heart of joshua phillips. Not drake not slate not even a fucking furry. the broken heart of Joshua phillips.
who is now crying himself to sleep.
I saw him and instantly fell in love. but I was so nervouse to tell him so. it took me a while just to say Hi to him. and the more I talked to him. the more and more I loved him. and then I finally told him I loved him. the first time I told him. he showed me a picture of his Boy friend.
I will never stop loving him. But If only I would of built the gut's to say something sooner. then maybe I wouldn't be crying my self to sleep because of a picture he sent me of him and his boy friend.
I'm in a corner of my room tear's running down my face knowing. I'll never be with him. no matter how much I try. he will always love someone else.
The broken heart of joshua phillips. Not drake not slate not even a fucking furry. the broken heart of Joshua phillips.
who is now crying himself to sleep.
FA+

the fact I'm crying my self to sleep
or is it I can't sotp crying.
or maybe the irony that i can't stop thinking of him.
ow wait i got it. it's the fact that i was so nervouse to tell him i loved him that i was too late. right i know that's the one.
I'm sorry. but I'v never felt this way. and to know I was too late to be with him. will forever make me look back and cry.
thanks bud. can always count on you.
I'm never want to be the guy who had stories about al lhis oy friend's. I don't want to believe he isn't the one. and if he isn't. then I'll know it soon enough.
he's begged me to come over to his house this weekend. and he really want's me to come to his B-day.
and he's told me he loves me as well.
I was just soo shy to ask him. that I missed my chance by three day's.
but this thought is going through his head.
if he really loves me. does he love him.
and if he loves him. does he really love me.
i know how you feel.. i have had this before.. but a little different.
if you ever need anything, please let me know, i am here for you and i will never leave you! *bighugs*
i am truly sorry that this happened. I have also had this,
Our school classes were changed of the fact that it was wrong with the classes and students.. So they got set into the good classes for the specific student.
Then i started to like a guy who came into my class. We began talking and both laughed and drew for each other, to see who was better.
After that i was fully in love and it was vacation, christmas. I began typing with him 24/7 and we had an amazing time, after that i told him i loved him. He was surprised but also said he loved me. My whole vacation was perfect. I couldn't wait to see him.
Then... i saw him in the hallway so i talked with him again, but he didnt say anything back. I grabbed his arm and asked why he behaved like that.
Turned out... he already got someone, but not really liked the lady. He already got someone....So he didnt talk to me anymore.. but the most worse was... His friends didnt like me... so thats why the guy didnt talk to me anymore.. because others said i was weird or anything... i have cried so much.
maybe this sounds stupid, but luckily the one you loved or cared about said it, and not pretend he was single..
maybe this haven't helped at all.. so sorry if this was like bullshit for you or didnt really help you
i am just really sorry that something like this happened to you :( i wish i could give you hugs and help you, but i don't know how to help you now..
if you want to talk or anything, i am right here for you <3