I didn't want to say this, since if it turns out to be untrue I think it would really disappoint quite a few people who want to see me healthy, but I'm optimistic. I have an appointment on the 30th to see a surgeon who is going to take something out, and if that seems healthy, will perform an exploratory surgery to find the problem because at this point... Yeah, I had to go without some of my medicine for a few days and it has been excruciating.

Here's hoping that I can soon get off all of these medicines and back into a better state of mind, since I would really like to post things again! My stories have been neglected due to my state of mind, linked directly to the state of my body, and I'm very sorry for that. I will update this when I know when the surgery is, and post a new journal when I'm on the mend.

Still love you all, and I hope you're doing well. Wish me luck!