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The Enemy inside
11 years ago
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*Looks around*
so,nobody here? Great! ^^
Auuuuuuuuuuuugh i'm so fucking tired lately,i amost throw up my stomach last night and this spend more energy than i imagine XD
I never posted a true Jornal Here,and i got no plans to it again,i won't explain nothing,i jsut want to vent,i don't care if someone will understand(i not used to sped much time on this site for a lot of reasons)
As the the title says,i'm dealing with the most fucking hard boss the life can have.Myself.
Is torturing,i go a lot of things to do,and my house is looking like a battle field and i just...sitting there and doing nothing.I'm used to be useless,ever time i try help someone this never works,or i let the things worse,that's one of the things is letting me really sick.
My soul is strong,but my body is not.
I'm posting here cause...i wanna to feel better with myself like "finnaly i got the ball to vent about my problems like a little bitch complainin of her 'terrtible life'(aka attwhore)"
There's no one here,but me,and this make me feel bad.I used to have someone with me,but now i don't know if i should keep with...never mind,i just know what to do.
I feel like i'm going nuts for no reason but at the same time i think is a thing i can just ignore.
This affecting me and my grades,wherever i look is chaos and fight,and my attempts to help is in vain,i can't eat,sleep or even think without hear a voice on my head judging me all the time.
I'm a prisoner of my own felsh(lol i'm not so dramatic,this is a quote of a book,one of William Gibson's book,i believe)
Whatever,today the day was going pretty well,i could do productive things,untill i back home...I can't stay outside but either i can't stay inside this place.Don't say to me things like to hang out with my friends,cause on RL i got none.
Internet is a curse and a bless at the same time,i know a lot of people,but i'll be always by myself.I'm not complaining about begin lonely,i always lve like that and was pretty happy,but the few i used to know really fucked up with everything.I'm not asking to gain a Nobel for be a good friend,just a thank you will be welcome.Or at east don't kick my ass for no reason.
That's all,this is better than therapy,i can't believe i used to waste money just to someone hear what i got to say and just stay there doing nothing.I could write here instead XD
I just don't know what to do...
so,nobody here? Great! ^^
Auuuuuuuuuuuugh i'm so fucking tired lately,i amost throw up my stomach last night and this spend more energy than i imagine XD
I never posted a true Jornal Here,and i got no plans to it again,i won't explain nothing,i jsut want to vent,i don't care if someone will understand(i not used to sped much time on this site for a lot of reasons)
As the the title says,i'm dealing with the most fucking hard boss the life can have.Myself.
Is torturing,i go a lot of things to do,and my house is looking like a battle field and i just...sitting there and doing nothing.I'm used to be useless,ever time i try help someone this never works,or i let the things worse,that's one of the things is letting me really sick.
My soul is strong,but my body is not.
I'm posting here cause...i wanna to feel better with myself like "finnaly i got the ball to vent about my problems like a little bitch complainin of her 'terrtible life'(aka attwhore)"
There's no one here,but me,and this make me feel bad.I used to have someone with me,but now i don't know if i should keep with...never mind,i just know what to do.
I feel like i'm going nuts for no reason but at the same time i think is a thing i can just ignore.
This affecting me and my grades,wherever i look is chaos and fight,and my attempts to help is in vain,i can't eat,sleep or even think without hear a voice on my head judging me all the time.
I'm a prisoner of my own felsh(lol i'm not so dramatic,this is a quote of a book,one of William Gibson's book,i believe)
Whatever,today the day was going pretty well,i could do productive things,untill i back home...I can't stay outside but either i can't stay inside this place.Don't say to me things like to hang out with my friends,cause on RL i got none.
Internet is a curse and a bless at the same time,i know a lot of people,but i'll be always by myself.I'm not complaining about begin lonely,i always lve like that and was pretty happy,but the few i used to know really fucked up with everything.I'm not asking to gain a Nobel for be a good friend,just a thank you will be welcome.Or at east don't kick my ass for no reason.
That's all,this is better than therapy,i can't believe i used to waste money just to someone hear what i got to say and just stay there doing nothing.I could write here instead XD
I just don't know what to do...
But I understand about the whole "just go hang out" thing. IRL, my closest friend of the last 9 years just moved away, and my other friends I only see at college, so the summer's going to be pretty lonely.
For what it's worth, I know we haven't talked as much as we should yet, but I think you're a great friend and somebody who anyone would be lucky to know
But if this doesn't help we can always be miserable together :P
Sorry about it,dude,i know that feel.But hey,you still having friends,this is a good thing right?
Haha,sounds a good deal for me,let's me depressed in group,cause be depressed alone is so....depressing XD
Btw,you know my hideouts,message if you need something 0/