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Reincarnation-is it possible?
11 years ago
First I want to say thank you for all the nice comments, notes and nice words relating to my last journal. Once again I was really overwhelmed by you guys, thank you so much for being awesome, lovely souls. I let Panchi go on Saturday, 14th of June. He fell asleep in my arms, hearing my voice. It was very peaceful. Almost beautiful if it wasn't hurting so much. I won't fall into a deep, dark hole like last time when I lost Floyd. I owe that to the one I loved most. He was suffering with me so many times and I don't want my animals to be sad because I am sad. And in somehow it feels like he has never "left". Idk it is weird. I don't feel or hear or see him but I do feel save and okay.
Well and two days before he died I got this kitten... She was found all alone and is not old enough to take care of herself. This happens all the time from April to September/ October if you are involved with shelter-work. Every year we get tons of kittens. Normally I foster some of them and then find new families. But this one kitten...! I had a cat many years ago. She was hit by a car and died before I got Pancho. Her name was Tussi, I got her from the shelter too. Love at first sight :) She was old and not very pretty so nobody wanted her. She would curl around my head every night to sleep, purring like a boss. She was the sweetest thing on earth <3 When she died I was more than desperate. But-it seems like she has come back?! That little kitten I have, her personality, the way she meows (Tussi couldn't meow properly, she sounded like a chicken), the gentleness about her, the insane trust and love we have for each other... It is 1:1 my cat Tussi. Just a lot younger and with different markings. She came just when I needed her most. My mum always dreaded the day when Pancho would die because she knew that he was/is THE dog and she was so anxious that losing him would drive me in total depression. And then my cat returns. Her soul that is. I think to myself "okay that is it, you have finally gone insane :'D" But then again I think, there is so much we don't know, we have no idea of so maybe it IS possible? That those who you love to destruction will come back one day?
Well and two days before he died I got this kitten... She was found all alone and is not old enough to take care of herself. This happens all the time from April to September/ October if you are involved with shelter-work. Every year we get tons of kittens. Normally I foster some of them and then find new families. But this one kitten...! I had a cat many years ago. She was hit by a car and died before I got Pancho. Her name was Tussi, I got her from the shelter too. Love at first sight :) She was old and not very pretty so nobody wanted her. She would curl around my head every night to sleep, purring like a boss. She was the sweetest thing on earth <3 When she died I was more than desperate. But-it seems like she has come back?! That little kitten I have, her personality, the way she meows (Tussi couldn't meow properly, she sounded like a chicken), the gentleness about her, the insane trust and love we have for each other... It is 1:1 my cat Tussi. Just a lot younger and with different markings. She came just when I needed her most. My mum always dreaded the day when Pancho would die because she knew that he was/is THE dog and she was so anxious that losing him would drive me in total depression. And then my cat returns. Her soul that is. I think to myself "okay that is it, you have finally gone insane :'D" But then again I think, there is so much we don't know, we have no idea of so maybe it IS possible? That those who you love to destruction will come back one day?
losing a pet is the most horrible thing in the world (i know the feel, I lost THE dog (for me) a little over 2years ago)
ur new kitten sounds like a winning lottery ticket :D
Yes,it is like somebody squashes your heart. It is the worst feeling ever. And a part of the pain never will go away as when they die, they take a small piece of your heart with them. I am so sorry that you lost YOUR dog, I know exactly how you feel :( But, we have to go on, for the sake of the one we lost. They'd hate to see us unhappy.
Haha true, my kitten is so precious <3 I won't ever let her go, this one is mine <3
I still feel a little ache when I talk about him and the fact that my boyfriend even hears that it was my ultimate dog in my stories feels good.
Yes I miss him but he's at a better place now I hope (I couldnt see him as much as i wanted cuz he lived with my dad, hadnt seen him in 3months and actually the day of the morning he passed, i would have gone to my dad to cellebrate a late fatherday).
I now have a little saviour German Shep, and she's a doll (except she is a little bit of trouble now nd then)
That said, on the other hand this little kitten may very well be it's own new soul and you were just lucky enough to have found each other at such a crucial time. I suppose you should just keep in mind that projecting past feelings and memories and traits onto a new pet can sometimes lead to disappointment or frustration, which isn't fair to you or the kitty.
So, while it's awesome to think about reincarnation and what the chances are that such a familiar soul would come into your life in such a hard time to comfort you, you should also try to keep your feet planted and get to know your new cat as its own individual, since it might have a lot of quirks and personality nooks and crannies that you could overlook if you were just seeing your old meow. <3
Either way it's awesome to have a new pet to turn to for comfort and mutually beneficial care!
She totally will have the chance to be her own self, I won't "force" her to be something she isn't just because my emotional pain is overwhelming. My rational self just started to crumble as this is the first time in my whole life I've experienced something like this.
I feel very, very lucky that she came into my life now, no matter who she is, she has managed to take a lot of heartache just because she is who she is. And I thank destiny every day that she found her way into my life NOW. Now when I need her most. One day I might be able to "pay back" what she has given to me tho I doubt I can ever repay her. My unrestricted love might be enough tho^^
They're so different from one another though, my two boys.
Beethoven was a shih tzu, and was casual, relaxed, sociable and super intelligent and had a bit of an attitude once in a while, he'd even throw a fit about going to bed as a puppy, and he'd get impatient if you didn't bring him to bed soon enough as an old man, he knew a lot of tricks but he'd get irritated if you kept asking him to do them and he'd give you some verbal what-for. I never would have chosen a shih tzu as a dog breed, but I'm so glad I wound up with him.
Brewster is a bull terrier and is non-stop energy, attentive, silly beyond reason even to the point that if he sees that somebody is down or upset he'll do something ridiculous, and when you laugh at his antics his whole body shows pride over his success. He will go anywhere and do anything I'm doing, and he'll have unreasonable fun with it. He is a hard-core mama's boy and anywhere I go he is bumping into the back of my leg with his hard pointy nose to the point that I've actually gotten bruised from it, and he cuddles like nobody's business.
Anyhow, I totally get it, some animals stand out to certain people, they click with us so perfectly that it's like they showed up just for us. It's sad that they live such short lives, but it's pretty lucky that we get to have them in our lives while we do.
though, a person may not always reincarnate into another person, or a dog/cat into another dog/cat that's all dependent upon what's being born at the time in which it's time to be reconnected. but i also believe that each soul will reincarnate into different forms and different living conditions to experience different things, because each spirit needs to learn all about the world before being entirely whole. ^^ i dunno if any of what i said is making sense.. it's always been hard to explain my pov on it all ^^;;
My condolences. Usually when an animal I know dies I can feel them leave their bodies. A soft of freedom in some respects to become one with everything again. But yeah, find your own truth and good luck.
Whether it's true or not, you've found a cat that makes you feel as if you've never lost your old friend and that's what matters.
If she makes you happy, then I don't see anything wrong in believing in reincarnation, or in cats with more lives. I'm happy for you. :)
I am sorry for you loss.
I'm kidding and I don't know if reincarnation exists, but I know that love is forever.
Ciao ^^
My own personal feelings on this, from my own experiences that are like many others, are in the same category as this.