When there is so little I enjoy in my life.

I don't know how y'all do it. The only things that keep my going most days are immersive video games/books/shows. Because they allow me the rare opportunity to live a life I actually enjoy, one that's worthwhile. In the cold realm of reality there's very little that interests me. No jobs that really call out, activities besides the aforementioned are dull and uninteresting. In fantasy I can actually "live" my ideal life. I feel the worst depression when I'm forced to face the fact that my fantasies will never come true.

I've said it before but I feel I was born in the wrong time period. This is such a horrible era to be alive. Too late the explore the earth, too early to explore the universe. Anything I want to do is impossible or at best highly unlikely to accomplish in my lifetime.

When people ask me what my goals/aspirations are I have to lie. Because the truth is embarrassing. You know what I want with my life? I want to own a starship, explore the galaxy, discover new species, planets, ect. That's my greatest goal in life. It's pathetic and will never come anywhere close to fruition but I can't help it. I just desire those things. I have no idea how people can just settle for the incredibly mundane lives this world has to offer.