Well lets see, its January 13th, 2009. IM 18. That's about it. I don't know if it is an apex of my life but time seems to crawl by and I want it to go faster, the mid term is upon me and soon I will be entering my final semester of High School. The thought depresses me but invigorates me at the same time. I don't know what to do as far as what will happen once I take my diploma from my principal who isnt one exact shape but a multitude. I have a forensics competition coming up and thats about all I have to look forward to. I was going to take my mate to a dance coming up but he doesnt want to go so I have no reason to really go outside that night. It seems that my life is uninteresting anymore and I really have nothing to show for my life but a messy room and a name tag from a local grocery store. Fabulous. My grades are steady, my family is fine. I have been faced with no struggles or opposition. I want to be challenged. I want to make time fly so damn fast that mother nature tells grandfather time to sloooow down. But that wont happen. The nights creep away full of underachievement and my leg falling asleep over and over again. I realize that no one if anyone will read this journal so that gives me hope to put up my countless pieces of work on here to show them off, but then I realize, my page gets about as many views as a quiet kid in the shadows of an alley way, so why even try? Im not sure why I am so scared to show my pictures and stories to everyone here, but at the same time, I dont do porn. I do yiffy stories but thats not enough to draw interest to my profile, so why submit anything? I really dont know why I am typing all of this or even voicing my thoughts because they have no impact on anything what so ever but I really just wanted to say all this even though all the ears in this world are turned away from me, although my ear is always there for someone or anyone who may want to talk, vent, rant, or anything really... I dunno. Im going to go listen to music or something. I dunno. Just feel blah and really critical of myself. Nothing really to be proud of really. Well.. . I have a mate that is too good for me and a car that is about as reliable as I am, so I would get rid of it for something a little better but oh well. See you all soon. Maybe coffee this week will help. We shall find out.

Love to all, to all a good night's sleep and much love to them in the future and present.