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11 years ago
Waaaaassssup Another journal entry.
This past few day's have been the darkest I think I have ever had to go through.
Let me fill you in.
After the night of being with my BF... I lost my verginity to him. I didn't plan on it. but I loved him so much for so long I thought he was the one. but the next morning still loving him... I had to go home. and once when I drove home still loving him I got a message from him saying.... I'm straight now...
He told me it was his mother that did it. but then he told me that he was the one that wanted to be straight. after all the thing's I went through to call him my boy friend. the day after I love him all night with no sleep. he tells me he no longer loves me. in fact he told me that even while we were in the bed together loving and kissing and ending in my loss of my verginity he didn't even love me. he told me he only loved me for a little while. and he didn't even love me he only liked me. a little.
He stole so much from me... my first kiss... my first crush... my first love.... my first Boy-friend... and worst of all my verginity... I will no longer be able to look at my love and say he is the only one.... he stole so much from me. I HATE him for that he told me he loved me and he told me he would love me for a long time to come and he told me he loved me for years. and it was all a lie.
the one person that loved me didn't really love me. my truest love was all a lie. he never loved me.
But I want to thank some people for being there for my darkest day's. talking to me and keeping me alive. cause if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here typing and loving you. these are my favorite people.
tofubread
pinfox80
GeminitheZodiacWolf
My friend carrie. not a furry.
these three people talked to me through the entire night and refused to stop talking to me until they knew I was okay.. and I love each of them for that. for now I'm doing fine.
I'm now doing fine I'm smiling again thanks to them. and I'm back into the light and loving all of you. and being the happy cheerful fox.
More good new's. MY Dad and Mom Are Now Okay With Me Being GAY. their okay with it.
Let me fill you in.
After the night of being with my BF... I lost my verginity to him. I didn't plan on it. but I loved him so much for so long I thought he was the one. but the next morning still loving him... I had to go home. and once when I drove home still loving him I got a message from him saying.... I'm straight now...
He told me it was his mother that did it. but then he told me that he was the one that wanted to be straight. after all the thing's I went through to call him my boy friend. the day after I love him all night with no sleep. he tells me he no longer loves me. in fact he told me that even while we were in the bed together loving and kissing and ending in my loss of my verginity he didn't even love me. he told me he only loved me for a little while. and he didn't even love me he only liked me. a little.
He stole so much from me... my first kiss... my first crush... my first love.... my first Boy-friend... and worst of all my verginity... I will no longer be able to look at my love and say he is the only one.... he stole so much from me. I HATE him for that he told me he loved me and he told me he would love me for a long time to come and he told me he loved me for years. and it was all a lie.
the one person that loved me didn't really love me. my truest love was all a lie. he never loved me.
But I want to thank some people for being there for my darkest day's. talking to me and keeping me alive. cause if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here typing and loving you. these are my favorite people.
tofubread
pinfox80
GeminitheZodiacWolfMy friend carrie. not a furry.
these three people talked to me through the entire night and refused to stop talking to me until they knew I was okay.. and I love each of them for that. for now I'm doing fine.
I'm now doing fine I'm smiling again thanks to them. and I'm back into the light and loving all of you. and being the happy cheerful fox.
More good new's. MY Dad and Mom Are Now Okay With Me Being GAY. their okay with it.
Wht do you mean not real. let me show you the damage on my heart.
Not anymore I'm almost recovered.
What...
thanks.
stay strong... stay strong
*hugs*
it really relieved me to read 'i am happy now' because that also makes me happy
i am sorry about your virginity though :(
also glad to see that your parents are okay with it! *hugs*
And if I had it my way I'd just forget that night ever happened so that way i could still live my love. and I just might.
How could I do that one second.
and no worries :)
thank you. and I hope some day I'll be back to bringing smiles and laughs to people.
You're very welcome; I'm very glad go have been able to help :D
I might of gotten the worst experience in dating and love to start off with. but that means thing's can only get better.
And where are amazingly nice people like you in RL. I mean I only seem to find you all online.
but what astounds me is how quickly he changed from loving me to forgetting me.
how is that possible to do.
Yeah I'm so much happier now.
and you gave me some awesome advise.
Yeah I' fine infact I'm cheerful again.
cause Now I'm keeping this tought in mind. as terrible as that was... the next one can only be better.
You would of missed me...