It has been 4 years since I last had sex. I have done a couple bjs, but legit, I am 4 years dry and it's really weighing down on me. I have had opportunities when I was dating, but it was too soon in the relationship and my past experiences with love have't been good ones 80% of the time, so I didn't want to threaten it with with a shakey foundation of sex. I regret it a lot because I would at least have had a great time while it lasted. But no. I used to live in California where sex was everywhere, I had fuck buddies, exes, there was a gay bar i hung around a couple times. I was responsible and am still clean btw, don't worry ^^

I live in Bangor, Maine where its difficult to find guys into someone like me first off. Almost every guy here is into otters and twinks, Muscle men..etc.. not many if any chubby chasers. There is someone, but it's a 2 hour drive just to get there and I really want to go but with all this crap I have to do with school, and the family farm, it's nearly impossible.

Normally I'm very responsible and mature when it comes to sex in my life, I don't bitch and whine about it. But it's coming up on 5 years, and I'm worried things wont change. Maybe when I move on to campus and despite my studies, will find time to take a 2 hour drive, or even find someone on campus or maybe meet someone somewhere else either in the local area, or online.

I am sorry for this long bitchy post about my dead sex life. Like I said it's been 4 going on 5 years... that's a long time by anyone's standards. I mean in that time a kid has been born and is now in school! So I kinda have a right to be upset at this point. Anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for listening. Love you all!