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Not An Excuse, Just An Explanation
11 years ago
So I know there's art I owe from like forever ago
And whoever is done waiting can as for a refund
Anyways
My household that I lived in was abusive
Not by one particular person per say
But it was a group effort
Fights were daily
And it was the main reason I had extreme depressive and suicidal episodes
It peaked recently when we learned our dog has only a few weeks to live, and that my mother can no longer live in houses due to mold spores so she's moving out.
My family, step father, mother and I are all control freaks as well
Long story short I got hit a few times and tensions rose and I decided I'm moving in with my dad
I lived in San Jose
And started moving recently
Due to my mothers Lyme disease I had to grow up faster and had higher expectations then people older than me
I'm moving back to Santa Cruz and hoping for the best
The pressure put on me since middle school has been wearing me down
And after years of a strict household
I left
I was forced out of the house and had many restrictions on internet
As well as cutting sprees and severe depression
My fathers house isn't any better
He's an alcoholic, chain smoker, and narcissist. He's stoned half the time and won't even give me the time of day
Mostly the reason why I don't do art much right now
I understand if people hate me
Or want refunds
Just note me
Thanks for reading
And whoever is done waiting can as for a refund
Anyways
My household that I lived in was abusive
Not by one particular person per say
But it was a group effort
Fights were daily
And it was the main reason I had extreme depressive and suicidal episodes
It peaked recently when we learned our dog has only a few weeks to live, and that my mother can no longer live in houses due to mold spores so she's moving out.
My family, step father, mother and I are all control freaks as well
Long story short I got hit a few times and tensions rose and I decided I'm moving in with my dad
I lived in San Jose
And started moving recently
Due to my mothers Lyme disease I had to grow up faster and had higher expectations then people older than me
I'm moving back to Santa Cruz and hoping for the best
The pressure put on me since middle school has been wearing me down
And after years of a strict household
I left
I was forced out of the house and had many restrictions on internet
As well as cutting sprees and severe depression
My fathers house isn't any better
He's an alcoholic, chain smoker, and narcissist. He's stoned half the time and won't even give me the time of day
Mostly the reason why I don't do art much right now
I understand if people hate me
Or want refunds
Just note me
Thanks for reading
Maybe not by the ones closer to you in the past like your family member.
When I was living with my family I was also a cutter. I felt like it made things feel real at first then when the cut was made a release.
If you need anyone to vent to or just talk to about anything I am almost always on <3
My skype is KateySux and you can add me if you like <3
I am very glad the situation is changing for you. I hope it improves life for you <3
hoping you'll feel better soon - just stick with it, life is a butt a lot of times, but there will be breaks from all the hardship
also, mold spores O3o; that's scary stuff yo
If you ever feel like you're being pushed to much don't be afraid to talk with counselors or local support groups :3 they're there to help
hope ya have a safe and stress-free move and that you'll still be able to make it to FurCon D:
I'm really sorry as to what's going on and if there is ever anything I can do, wether it be listening or anything I'd be more than glad to help
I was wondering where you went off to! Missed seeing your art, and hearing from you
But most of all I hope you're doing okay and that things get better
Wish I could help :S