I will probably delete this tomorrow but I have to vent somewhere, it's just been one if those nights where crying seems like the only thing I want to do, I help all my friends when they are upset because I want to be there for them and make things better, but when it seems like i can't do anything at all to help it kinda hurts and all I do is take on my friends stress to a point where I just can't handle any more thoughts in my head, I never let them know though because they will stop telling me things to protect me from stress. It stresses me out more though if I know they can't tell me, I want to be here always for them, but sometimes I think I need to get it all out too, and it seems like no one is ever here to listen to me. Everyday I hide my emotions to make everyone else happy, even though everyday I tear myself down. My friends tell me "oh you wouldn't understand" or "your life is better, what do you have to complain about" but there' is so much in me that makes me want to cry everyday, there are so many things in my life that just no one knows because I don't want them to feel like me when I can't help a friend, I just want my friend to be happy, but I can't help with that, sometimes it feels like I just can't breath, I'm drowning in all the problems and can't get out. That's where sinking deeper ( the pic I resently finished) came from, each cuff is a friend who is pulling me deeper into the abyss that is ready to swollow me whole,
I'm sorry if this is really long and repetitive I just had to get it out.


Tldr --> I'm stressed