*messes hair* I've been actually in a great mood lately, went into work and it mostly evaporated other then my humming or low singing. My friend came in and we were talking and we ended up on the subject of my love-life. Being she slept with her boyfriend's friend (which was fine with him I guess) I was like, I don't really meet people outside of work, and when people look at me they think im 16 or 12 Great that you know I'll look youthful for awhile not so great for the dating scene. Going along with that, I don't know the ages of my co-workers so even if I did go out with them or whatever I wouldn't be able to do much with them if they were underage. :/ I mentioned that a friend of mine asked me out, he's a nice guy and all but he's not my type. He's funny and a great guy, but he's not what im looking for and after spending so much time with him recently I've pretty much gotten the gist im not attracted to him at all. I prefer guys with not only a kind heart but also guys with motivation, something he's really lacking in considering when I did work with him the first time I was doing wall products (fryed chicken and fish) Doing grill (meats, onions) as well as keeping the ice cream machine full and getting ice for people and cleaning. All he was doing was assembly (making sandwhiches) I like a guy with a great personality, not saying he doesn't but for me he's lacking. I like guys with interesting qualities or quirks. Im not attracted to meat-heads. I've been hit on by enough foot-ball players to know that. I love gentlemen because im too often bothered by pigs.

Im usually attracted to tall and handsome. (yes, sometimes dark) But I've fallen for people outside of that type because there was something special about them and how they made me feel. For me, that guy is like a bro. Not like he's my brother. The male kind of reference of a bro. She told me to try him out but im really sure im not interested in him at all. We got talking more and im really hoping she doesn't start pimping me out :X Im pretty sure im the relationship type of girl. And I have very particular tastes in men and kinks.

Maybe I shouldn't have said anything about not having a love life. But it did give me some useful information... I dunno... im shy.. and my first reaction is to run. Also to hide. I literally made my first boyfriend chase me around the library looking for me on our first date. and hid in the closet when I went with my second boyfriend. Im just starting to get my confidence back... the old me. I don't wanna ruin it. I admit I've been lonely but I've gone a year before without seeing anyone.

Im not really sure what I wanna do; There are a couple im interested in.

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