I often at times think, am I really that uninteresting of a person. That my attempts at trying to catch others attention, or at least keep their attention on me, if only just a little or at all. Maybe I've just changed in the way that I perceive how things are, or that I'm worrying over nothing. I used to handle hearing the silence so much, and now.. I don't think I can handle it anymore.. I've grown so anxious whenever I hear silence.. just the feeling of being so alone.. *sigh* Perhaps I just need to get my head straight, maybe focus more on others think like actually attempting to draw more stuff, better stuff then just brooding over my own thoughts. I don't even know if I should even post this journal or not. It not like me to post rants, even if it can be called a rant/vent...