So as I have been tossing hints around about, I have searched for a new chance at the university and yesterday I got the wonderful answer that I was more than welcome to come back and try once more :)
This time I will do it differently and I will do a little less over longer time, so I don't overwork my brain again, I have been trought some painful episode, some so horrible that none other than mone other person in my life know of them :-l
So now I will try the new plan.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58C.....PLWWeQHJTCyPpw

enjoy the movie :)