I'd say that since I joined the community life has been so much better... and that would be the truth when it comes to the community itself... but life outside the community continues and at times that outside life sucks... especially being Therian and feeling even more out of place than I otherwise would... anywho...

I've already shared how I was raised and how that pretty much meant I could never really be myself and how I've been figuring out who I really am as a person and as a furry...

Turns out I'm gay... And I'm perfectly happy being able to openly say that and really be myself... but with that comes all the new experiences and fears and... well... complications...

See, I want to be myself and I'm tired of hiding... but I can't exactly come out to my family since my family is the way they are... To make matters even more confusing and complicated I've gone and fallen head over heals for someone and it was completely unexpected and I'll spare all the details, but long story short, as important as I've become to him and as much as he says he loves me, I was already too late and he's already got someone I would never be able to be... it's more complicated than that and a lot of shit happened and like I said I'll spare the details, but I still love him to death...

I really don't want to do the dating scene again and I'm seriously tired of everybody I fall for basically being able to suddenly be happy and taken from me by someone else... I also refuse to date anybody who isn't a furry and who doesn't understand all my interests (both sexual and in general)...

I don't know... there are just... complications... and I'm tired of being so alone...