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Lost a friend..
11 years ago
Hello!
So yesterday I found out that a pretty good friend of mine (I wouldn't say close since I had only known him for a short period of time and we hardly talked on a regular basis) took his own life..
Apparently he was going through a lot of shit and suffered from manic depression, but you wouldn't know this unless you were practically his family.
I have been pretty upset about it all day..I'm not too sure why I am so sad.
He was the first friend that Has passed and it tore me into pieces.
If you were meeting this guy for the first time, He wouldn't be afraid to tell you how it is, act like your best bud, and strip down naked for no apparent reason.
I worked with him at walmart for a bit until he ended up quitting. I used to pick on him for wearing a sweater to work.
But honestly, I would have never known that any of that was wrong with him if someone didn't tell me.
He was such a level headed guy and doesn't afraid of anything. (lol)
That whole gang of friends was living in an apartment together and they got evicted and had to be out by the morning of the 16th. They were, but Chase had to go back and get a book...
He went by himself and locked himself in the back bedroom and shot himself with a shotgun.
They found him yesterday after a couple of days not hearing from him so one friend went to check and see if he was still there.
He had to break down the door to get to him and it was too late.
It breaks my heart so I can't even imagine what his close friends are going through.
He was so young and had his whole life ahead of him.
We all loved him. Old friends to new acquaintances . He will always hold a spot in our hearts because he had done something different for each one of us that made us fall in love with him.
I just wish he would have left a note...or something like what was going through his head when he did it? It feels so surreal and almost like this is just a bad dream and I will wake up any minute. He was the last person I would suspect to kill themselves.
IF you are every feeling down and suicidal, please talk to someone. You never know who might help you look to the bright side of things. You may be feeling all of these negative feelings but to every negative there is a positive and suicide should never be the answer to resolve your issues. You hurt more than you help when you do that. Just know that there is always at least one person out there that wants to talk to you and be your friend and make you see the great things in life. I'm one of them. Please, If you ever feel upset even in the slightest bit and just need to talk, I will be here for you.
RIP Chase Ward.
You were loved by many and will be deeply missed.
8-17-2014
Apparently he was going through a lot of shit and suffered from manic depression, but you wouldn't know this unless you were practically his family.
I have been pretty upset about it all day..I'm not too sure why I am so sad.
He was the first friend that Has passed and it tore me into pieces.
If you were meeting this guy for the first time, He wouldn't be afraid to tell you how it is, act like your best bud, and strip down naked for no apparent reason.
I worked with him at walmart for a bit until he ended up quitting. I used to pick on him for wearing a sweater to work.
But honestly, I would have never known that any of that was wrong with him if someone didn't tell me.
He was such a level headed guy and doesn't afraid of anything. (lol)
That whole gang of friends was living in an apartment together and they got evicted and had to be out by the morning of the 16th. They were, but Chase had to go back and get a book...
He went by himself and locked himself in the back bedroom and shot himself with a shotgun.
They found him yesterday after a couple of days not hearing from him so one friend went to check and see if he was still there.
He had to break down the door to get to him and it was too late.
It breaks my heart so I can't even imagine what his close friends are going through.
He was so young and had his whole life ahead of him.
We all loved him. Old friends to new acquaintances . He will always hold a spot in our hearts because he had done something different for each one of us that made us fall in love with him.
I just wish he would have left a note...or something like what was going through his head when he did it? It feels so surreal and almost like this is just a bad dream and I will wake up any minute. He was the last person I would suspect to kill themselves.
IF you are every feeling down and suicidal, please talk to someone. You never know who might help you look to the bright side of things. You may be feeling all of these negative feelings but to every negative there is a positive and suicide should never be the answer to resolve your issues. You hurt more than you help when you do that. Just know that there is always at least one person out there that wants to talk to you and be your friend and make you see the great things in life. I'm one of them. Please, If you ever feel upset even in the slightest bit and just need to talk, I will be here for you.
RIP Chase Ward.
You were loved by many and will be deeply missed.
8-17-2014
i just recently lost a friend and almost lost a few more..
most of them to suicide..
we will remember him in our memories and our hearts..
the feeling of losing a friend or family member is a bad bad feeling..
i know it well..
its just terrible..
i can understand with that..
they may think its to make themselves happy..
and i can well not compare but i forgot what word would describe it.
I've been dealing with depression too.
i havent had suicidal thoughts in weeks!
and well.. i hope i never do..
you're welcome..
the pain its terrible
and well
this is the first time..
well
a friend was talking to me at their final moments..
he's alright now..
he's safe in the hospital from what i heard..
and well..
i hope .. he wont try it again..
even though that might occur again and again..
my condolences go out to you too.. and thanks..
I thought it was the end of the world and I would sit in the shower and cry for a good hour and was so depressed and unmotivated.
Then my friends were talking to me trying to cheer me up..
I realized that I have people that care about me.
We have something new and exciting to look forward to every day of our lives.
Congrats on that :) I bet that is a major accomplishment to both yourself and close friends and family.
It's okay to feel depression and anxiety, we all do, some more than others.
I am not a christian, nor do I really have any religious beliefs, but I think honestly there is at least one person out there that loves you and genuinely cares about and for you.
I can't say I know how the after life is, but how could you be happy when you aren't around the people that are willing to take the time out of their day to support you.
just some food for though lol
Nothing pointed to you in particular. Just me rambling in general..
that's what I have been thinking about lately. :P
thanks on congrating me..
and i'd figure out what else to say just im not in a normal mood..
please forgive me
My mind was just churning with those ideas.
I do hope you feel well soon and if you ever need anything feel free to pm me.
i can PM you.. but i totally understand its not about what you said it was something else