So like.. tomorrow my boyfriend and I celebrate 4 months together. Now I know that this is hardly a long time, but after spending some time with him today.. I can say that I've never ever thought that I would have somebody like this. September is usually a hard time for me because it's the month my dad passed away, the end of August is usually when I feel my depression seep back but do I feel it this year? Hell to the no. Who would of thought tickling the fuck out of somebody and having them laugh out death threats to get you to stop would make me realize just how much I've grown these past few months?

I just want to say, it took me 17 years to have somebody actually here with me. I was patient, and I believe that everything was worth the wait. I haven't felt a drop of my old depression, a hint of my gender issues, nothing. When I had an anxiety attack he was right there.. holding my hand and talking me through it, and didn't even tell his other friends about my attack, and just said "I was tired" when I went mute because of my anxiety, knowing I get embarrassed about it. I've finally found someone who I can be a complete idiot around and still know he's thinking, "Damn I love her."

I know I don't show it enough because I've been running around trying to get my shit together for college, but I love you so much, Kevin. There's literally nobody I can picture in my life right now. I know these next 6 months will be difficult.. but we'll make it. And thank you for everything you do for me.