I lived that way for a long time. I was hiding from my true feelings and it almost destroyed me.

But the truth- that I was better off living as a woman- was a hard thing to deal with.

There is a reason I like weird people. It is because they hide less. They are more openly honest. I try not to hide behind a mask. Most of my friends even say that I am sometimes TOO honest. I do not believe such a thing exists

you have seen people get pissed at me for being honest but i still hide... if i am in pain i dont genterally tell if i am hurt {emotionally} ill try hard not to cry or ill go sit some where {hideing} and cry this is what i ment by the masks most one the out side see me... as the more happy serious kitty .... very few see the hurt struggling confuse or upset kitty that i some times am

i grew up in a sort of "deal with it yourself" way i guess. My emotional side just doesnt show too well. I try to be logical.