You know, I typically keep this to myself, but I figured I'd go ahead & right something for my FA. Maybe I could use it as an actual journal, although it wasn't so successful on dA, but we'll see.
Lately, I've had horrid luck when it comes to find a boyfriend, whether it be it not lasting or just being turned down. I've honestly never thought about dating inside the fandom, since I'm not an AVID participant in it. Like, I don't go to conventions or have a strong urge or desire to dress up, although I wouldn't mind having a fursuit of my fursona. Also, it's kind of hard to go to a furcon when there's none in the area... That's also another thing that sparked me to write this. I'm just... kind of curious if I could find a boyfriend here.
Another thing that's been very off-putting is that, probably over 70% of the guys I do find, whether local or online, all they want is sex. =/ It's so frustrating. I would rather have a relationship with no sex & all cuddles & kisses than have one that's based on sex. I swear, I just want to slap some of them when, within the first 10 minutes of us talking, they ask for dirty pics...
I used to only want to date someone local, but there's so many jerks & guys still in the closet here, I've practically given up. However, I would mind a long-distance relationship, but I had to feel like there was hope that me & the guy would meet up eventually.
I don't know... To be honest, I just want... a close friend... someone close enough to my heart that I could kiss if the day hadn't been quite so in my favor. Take this for what you will, but I'm kind of out of things to say.
See you next time, I suppose.