First off, for kiriban readers that don't want to read all of this, just hop to the bottom of this journal to read the part that pertains to you! Thanks!
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I've struggled with the idea of staying in this community for a long time, and its something I've gone back and forth on a lot. I've met a lot of great people on the various sites I frequent, but I've also realized that a large part of my extended art block, and general low mood have been influenced by DA, FA, and Tumblr. I've considered leaving a lot these past few weeks, always convinced otherwise by a friend or just a lack of initiative. But my art has suffered, my mood has suffered, and recent experiences have really pushed my hand.

People often excuse inappropriate behavior as 'the way of the internet'. I've always been sensitive, and even more than that, have had an exceptionally low tolerance for inconsiderate people. I do not submit my artwork to be blatantly criticized--and yes, there is a very big difference between critique and criticism--as I'm sure no one does. I enjoy critique, especially if I actually ask for it, but far too often I've had people insult me with this suggestion that they have the right to tell me what I should be doing or what I'm failing to do to meet their standards. This hasn't only happened to me--I've seen others endure the same disrespect, and it infuriates me. I think a lot of people forget that the usernames they're talking to on their computer are people with feelings, or maybe they're just too immature to acknowledge that. On all three of these sites, though especially Tumblr, so many people take it upon themselves to mount upon a soap box and preach despite no one asking for their opinion, even to the point of harming others. Its sick and not something that should be condoned or accepted as normal behavior.

All of that to say, I've finally decided to leave. I've seen other artists do this in the past and it was always very sad to me, but now I can understand it. Sharing your work with a community, or even being part of a community, is not worth the emotional turmoil. I will continue to lurk to follow artists I respect, or friends, but in a week I will be removing all content from my galleries across the board. I'll still be active on Tumblr though only somewhat, and will not be posting any artwork from now on. I also won't be signing onto skype anymore, and will probably end up creating a new one just for friends and family. I will be active on my new RPG forum, but likely nowhere else.

I want to thank everyone for all of their support over the years. I don't want you think I don't appreciate that! You're amazing, talented, and interesting people and I wish you all of the best in the future. If you would like to contact me for any reason, please do not note me (notes stress me out), but you can email me at thy.firestarter@gmail.com. If you've ever received art from me, I suggest retrieving it from my gallery within the next week before it is removed, as I cannot guarantee having it saved on my computer.

Take care, guys.

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Kiriban winners: As you've likely noticed, I haven't had much success in art, and due to my recent decisions to leave, that's likely not going to happen. I'm deeply sorry for disappointing you all, it was never my intention. I am willing to give away any of the designs I have for trade as a concession, or if none of them appeal to you, you're free to email me and we can discuss other options. I do want to reward you guys for your support, it just won't be with art. :/