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11 years ago
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kazhiru
2. Kaz
3. Kati/Kate
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Kazhiru
2. Lollingdreamer
3. LostInAReverie
THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Watched familyguy
2. Imagined how awesome it would be to date death from family guy
3. I guess I drew a rape face.
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My cat smile
2. my eyes
3. I kinda like my face and sense of humor
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm so talkative like oh my gosh
2. I'm also fat. very fat. Like FAAAAT.
3. I have no life.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. A Fin.
2. erm... lemme think... First hand experience in serious depression and bullying, which have helped me to understand that every person is an asshole until proven otherwise.
3. thanks to this I am adaptable as fuck. I have no idea to list for my origins, but I guess these things "shape" me so that's all you are gonna get.
THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Squirrels.
2. loneliness. In all sense of the term.
3. I am not really an easily scared person... so... as the last thing... losing my friends?
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. A bath robe. dressing gown, whatever this is called, a rope you wear after shower.
2. My glasses
3. seriously nothing else. I am literally naked over here. I had a blanket a while back?
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. computer
2. tablet
3. TV (Or my bed and a blanket. Gosh I love sleeping)
THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Keys
2. wallet
3. tablet
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Imagine dragons
2. Hollywood Undead
3. those house electro mixes on youtube.
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Sleep. Dream. Sleeping is WAY better than reality. Sleep all the time! I sometimes wish I didn't need to be awake at all!
2. Netflix
3. Maybe game some? Skyrim maybe? (I wish hanging out with friends was an option, but I really don't have friends to count on, so I have to make do with WHAT I HAVE)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. We are by hollywood undead
2. imagine dragons - bleeding out
3. dada life - kick out the epic mother fucker (OR salsa tequila by anders nilsen ... Or teflon brothers - kesä 86 OR dementia by sanni)
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Maybe write a book?
2. love something. It has been two years since I was able to love, I kinda miss it. God am I happy to have my man sized spiderman doll.
3. SFW version: find a hobby or ANY reason to leave my house even for one day. NSFW version: Or if unable: Buy strap on and fuck spiderman doll.
THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. Excising
2. Failing at suicide while I had the chance
3. Seriously, if I did not love my parents as much as I do, I would LOVE to be dead. As much as I love my parents, It PAINS me to not be able to die. I simply HATE having to force myself through every day, knowing that there is ABSOLUTELY nothing for me out there. I might just sleep until all eternity. I regret waking up in the mornings.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Low maintanance
2. honesty and open mindedness
3. knowing that someone cares. (basically a friend (which I don't really have atm) with the benefits of sex)
THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. I promised my mom not to seek death. I still hope it happens, I just don't SEEK it. I think this is huge.
2. my art and writings. I sill TRY to do something usefull. I don't work, I'm constantly on sick leave and I consume more medication than is sane. I think that the fact that I TRY is huge.
3. I may have given up on myself, but I haven't really given up on the world yet. I don't seek friendship, but I still wish it happens sometime. I guess it would be nice to have a reason to exist is all. (If you still don't get it, I mean that I see no reason to live for myself. currently I live for my mom. I need SOMETHING to live for, something which is not myself.)
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. Spiderman is my best friend and boyfriend.
2. I fucking love sleeping.
3. in a day, I eat less than 1,1 grams of meds.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX:
1. The way they move and carry themselves.
2. Eyes and hair (because I cannot seem to be able to remember much else)
3. the smell. I am VERY scent coordinated.
THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE SAME/OPPOSITE SEX:
1. open mindedness and ease to accept things, especially the ability to make do what they have, and not bitch about some silly things. Good example: If you refuse to listen to justin bieber, I see you as a total asshole who is too full of himself to calm one's tits the fuck down. Instead of pitching and moaning, I want you to understand that "OH yeah. It's the fucking RADIO. it plays shit. I might just as well ENDURE THIS CRAP MUSIC instead of Pitching about it like the world is about to end because of a FUCKING SONG IN THE RADIO?!"
2. Love. Or caring. A smile is a huge thing to me. I am horribly emotionally scarred strained and absolutely lack the trust aspect. But I am able to understand that all those things are things that I can learn to deal with. I don't need a person who is hell bend on loving me. I just need to know there is someone to catch me if I fall.
3. To be funny. I hate people who are too serious, and who make their mind before they even try. Seriously, if you have NEVER eaten something, you CANNOT know if you like it or not! I want the person to be able to TRY THINGS, even if they think they most probably will hate it. I still need to know that they would try it, so that they can have a proper reason to say no.
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Maintain a proper life. As in waking up in the morning, going to school/work/whatever on a regular basis, eat and then prepare for a second. Seriously, I can do one or two things out of "wake up in time" "eat" "Do something productive" "relax" "stress" "sleep" "socialize" etc. I am lucky if I eat and sleep as it is.
2. Leaving my house for more than an hour. I need a REASON to do things. And currently I do not have reason for anything else than going to store once a month.
3. My current capacity for socializing is VERY LOW. I remember 5 years back when I could see friends every day and enjoy every minute of it. Currently I can squeeze 2 hours of happy juice out of me, and after that I need a week off.
THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. FRIENDS! Oh my god I feel like crying just thinking about how crap my life has become.
2. LOVE. I just... earn for it. I remember what it was like to have friends and a boyfriend. I could literally kill for that.
3. happiness. I cannot believe I was once able to go for weeks and months without feeling sad at all! Now I cannot go for an hour without feeling like crying.
THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A get away from jail free card for euthanasia.
2. I wish I could lose my mind. I don't care if I had the devil on me. At least he would speak to me.
3. a smile would be nice.
THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. I was bullied through school, and even after it. Every day I remember the shit I have heard. I have heard multiple people telling me to kill myself. I have had people snap at me for how I weight or look. I have been called a rapist and a child/animal abuser. I have heard it all. I have learned to live with that shit. I am still unable to say no to this treatment, but at least I now understand that shit is going to happen. for me most of all. and people SUCK. I learned to accept that. I know how to survive life without a single friend.
2. I broke up from my boyfriend. Or he broke up with me. After a week of me being homelessness he was already together with my best friend, and my other best friend was head over heels over him. AS we broke up, I lost nearly all my friends. Trust no-one. The ones you love the most are the ones who will also hurt you the most. I lost my friends and home in the same day. I don't hear of my friends anymore. One told me already that she wishes not to hear of me anymore. Apparently my EX's dick is worth more that a friendship with me. This has taught me VERY LOW self esteem. Seriously, just knowing that a person TOLERATES me is a huge deal for me. I know not to expect anything from ANYONE.
3. I was, and still am, very depressed. Tried to kill myself. Went to the insane asylum twice, and I have went through every single treatment possible for depression. I still wish to die more than I wish to live. Seriously, this shit is not even worth it anymore. I have learned to let go.
THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading
2. Drawing
3. Writing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep
2. Maybe play skyrim?
3. Watch family guy from netflix.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. A coffee machine fixer. (A warranty repair shop worker)
2. those people they have at the asylums and hospitals to tell "how shit their life is but how they made it through it"
3. I have zero hopes for future life. At the moment it's difficult to grasp the concept of being ALIVE after 5 years, much less what am I planning to do then. maybe I could make a job out of carving my own gasket and headstone.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. england
2. sweden
3. My bed.
THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Spiderman
2. Deadpool
3. Death
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. A bucket list, eh? Will all my belongings to my parents. I want Spiderman to be buried with me. (there is a high chance I will haunt Spiderman, so please, do not try to give spiderman to a new home.
2. Kill all the people who have wronged me.
3. Haunt the shit out of them at the very least.
1. Kazhiru
2. Kaz
3. Kati/Kate
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Kazhiru
2. Lollingdreamer
3. LostInAReverie
THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Watched familyguy
2. Imagined how awesome it would be to date death from family guy
3. I guess I drew a rape face.
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My cat smile
2. my eyes
3. I kinda like my face and sense of humor
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm so talkative like oh my gosh
2. I'm also fat. very fat. Like FAAAAT.
3. I have no life.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. A Fin.
2. erm... lemme think... First hand experience in serious depression and bullying, which have helped me to understand that every person is an asshole until proven otherwise.
3. thanks to this I am adaptable as fuck. I have no idea to list for my origins, but I guess these things "shape" me so that's all you are gonna get.
THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Squirrels.
2. loneliness. In all sense of the term.
3. I am not really an easily scared person... so... as the last thing... losing my friends?
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. A bath robe. dressing gown, whatever this is called, a rope you wear after shower.
2. My glasses
3. seriously nothing else. I am literally naked over here. I had a blanket a while back?
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. computer
2. tablet
3. TV (Or my bed and a blanket. Gosh I love sleeping)
THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Keys
2. wallet
3. tablet
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Imagine dragons
2. Hollywood Undead
3. those house electro mixes on youtube.
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Sleep. Dream. Sleeping is WAY better than reality. Sleep all the time! I sometimes wish I didn't need to be awake at all!
2. Netflix
3. Maybe game some? Skyrim maybe? (I wish hanging out with friends was an option, but I really don't have friends to count on, so I have to make do with WHAT I HAVE)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. We are by hollywood undead
2. imagine dragons - bleeding out
3. dada life - kick out the epic mother fucker (OR salsa tequila by anders nilsen ... Or teflon brothers - kesä 86 OR dementia by sanni)
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Maybe write a book?
2. love something. It has been two years since I was able to love, I kinda miss it. God am I happy to have my man sized spiderman doll.
3. SFW version: find a hobby or ANY reason to leave my house even for one day. NSFW version: Or if unable: Buy strap on and fuck spiderman doll.
THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. Excising
2. Failing at suicide while I had the chance
3. Seriously, if I did not love my parents as much as I do, I would LOVE to be dead. As much as I love my parents, It PAINS me to not be able to die. I simply HATE having to force myself through every day, knowing that there is ABSOLUTELY nothing for me out there. I might just sleep until all eternity. I regret waking up in the mornings.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Low maintanance
2. honesty and open mindedness
3. knowing that someone cares. (basically a friend (which I don't really have atm) with the benefits of sex)
THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. I promised my mom not to seek death. I still hope it happens, I just don't SEEK it. I think this is huge.
2. my art and writings. I sill TRY to do something usefull. I don't work, I'm constantly on sick leave and I consume more medication than is sane. I think that the fact that I TRY is huge.
3. I may have given up on myself, but I haven't really given up on the world yet. I don't seek friendship, but I still wish it happens sometime. I guess it would be nice to have a reason to exist is all. (If you still don't get it, I mean that I see no reason to live for myself. currently I live for my mom. I need SOMETHING to live for, something which is not myself.)
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. Spiderman is my best friend and boyfriend.
2. I fucking love sleeping.
3. in a day, I eat less than 1,1 grams of meds.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX:
1. The way they move and carry themselves.
2. Eyes and hair (because I cannot seem to be able to remember much else)
3. the smell. I am VERY scent coordinated.
THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE SAME/OPPOSITE SEX:
1. open mindedness and ease to accept things, especially the ability to make do what they have, and not bitch about some silly things. Good example: If you refuse to listen to justin bieber, I see you as a total asshole who is too full of himself to calm one's tits the fuck down. Instead of pitching and moaning, I want you to understand that "OH yeah. It's the fucking RADIO. it plays shit. I might just as well ENDURE THIS CRAP MUSIC instead of Pitching about it like the world is about to end because of a FUCKING SONG IN THE RADIO?!"
2. Love. Or caring. A smile is a huge thing to me. I am horribly emotionally scarred strained and absolutely lack the trust aspect. But I am able to understand that all those things are things that I can learn to deal with. I don't need a person who is hell bend on loving me. I just need to know there is someone to catch me if I fall.
3. To be funny. I hate people who are too serious, and who make their mind before they even try. Seriously, if you have NEVER eaten something, you CANNOT know if you like it or not! I want the person to be able to TRY THINGS, even if they think they most probably will hate it. I still need to know that they would try it, so that they can have a proper reason to say no.
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Maintain a proper life. As in waking up in the morning, going to school/work/whatever on a regular basis, eat and then prepare for a second. Seriously, I can do one or two things out of "wake up in time" "eat" "Do something productive" "relax" "stress" "sleep" "socialize" etc. I am lucky if I eat and sleep as it is.
2. Leaving my house for more than an hour. I need a REASON to do things. And currently I do not have reason for anything else than going to store once a month.
3. My current capacity for socializing is VERY LOW. I remember 5 years back when I could see friends every day and enjoy every minute of it. Currently I can squeeze 2 hours of happy juice out of me, and after that I need a week off.
THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. FRIENDS! Oh my god I feel like crying just thinking about how crap my life has become.
2. LOVE. I just... earn for it. I remember what it was like to have friends and a boyfriend. I could literally kill for that.
3. happiness. I cannot believe I was once able to go for weeks and months without feeling sad at all! Now I cannot go for an hour without feeling like crying.
THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A get away from jail free card for euthanasia.
2. I wish I could lose my mind. I don't care if I had the devil on me. At least he would speak to me.
3. a smile would be nice.
THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. I was bullied through school, and even after it. Every day I remember the shit I have heard. I have heard multiple people telling me to kill myself. I have had people snap at me for how I weight or look. I have been called a rapist and a child/animal abuser. I have heard it all. I have learned to live with that shit. I am still unable to say no to this treatment, but at least I now understand that shit is going to happen. for me most of all. and people SUCK. I learned to accept that. I know how to survive life without a single friend.
2. I broke up from my boyfriend. Or he broke up with me. After a week of me being homelessness he was already together with my best friend, and my other best friend was head over heels over him. AS we broke up, I lost nearly all my friends. Trust no-one. The ones you love the most are the ones who will also hurt you the most. I lost my friends and home in the same day. I don't hear of my friends anymore. One told me already that she wishes not to hear of me anymore. Apparently my EX's dick is worth more that a friendship with me. This has taught me VERY LOW self esteem. Seriously, just knowing that a person TOLERATES me is a huge deal for me. I know not to expect anything from ANYONE.
3. I was, and still am, very depressed. Tried to kill myself. Went to the insane asylum twice, and I have went through every single treatment possible for depression. I still wish to die more than I wish to live. Seriously, this shit is not even worth it anymore. I have learned to let go.
THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading
2. Drawing
3. Writing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep
2. Maybe play skyrim?
3. Watch family guy from netflix.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. A coffee machine fixer. (A warranty repair shop worker)
2. those people they have at the asylums and hospitals to tell "how shit their life is but how they made it through it"
3. I have zero hopes for future life. At the moment it's difficult to grasp the concept of being ALIVE after 5 years, much less what am I planning to do then. maybe I could make a job out of carving my own gasket and headstone.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. england
2. sweden
3. My bed.
THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Spiderman
2. Deadpool
3. Death
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. A bucket list, eh? Will all my belongings to my parents. I want Spiderman to be buried with me. (there is a high chance I will haunt Spiderman, so please, do not try to give spiderman to a new home.
2. Kill all the people who have wronged me.
3. Haunt the shit out of them at the very least.
