I'm so freakin stressed out and discouraged. I thought I had just barely enough money for my permit but now I found out it may be even more and everything's just a mess. I need a second job but no one is hiring in the same vicinity as GameStop or my house so it's gonna be on the other side of town which means gas money I nor anyone in my family has and I just don't even know what to do any more. I'm sick of having to pay to live like this. I wish I could just run away from it all. I don't know what to do any more.

I literally am at my wits end. I just cannot keep dealing with this. Jo Ann's laying me off was the worst thing that could've happened right now. I desperately need someone to commission me or something. I really need cash which is why I'm selling a lot of characters. But no one's wanting to pay what I'm asking for them or no one's wanting to pay cash or no one can pay right now and I just don't know what to do. I really don't.

So I'm sitting here having a break down because I just can't even deal with this any more.