Going in for my heart operation today. Freaking the fuck out about it thats for sure. I've been taken off my meds so my hearts been messing up all day, I cant even walk down the stairs without feeling like I've ran down the street and back. Plus the HORRIBLE smelling soap and stuff I've been given to use :p I have this really oily feeling goop I have to put up my nose that destroys all germs and bacteria up there. I have to use it three times a day which is just really icky!

I WAS gonna be going to a gay parade in town the day after but it looks like that dreams down the toilet. Hopefully my operation goes well as I am really stating to lose my mind over this, stress levels to maximum. Its only a couple hours away and I have to be awake for the whole thing. -insert panic face here-

Will update later today when its over.