This is seriously going to get personal, you ready?
I have nothing to hide.

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?
Yes. But I am a person who once in relationship loses all interest in other possible suitors. And I am openminded enough to just ASK my darn husband what he would think if we tried threesome *wink wink*

The last time you felt honestly broken?
physically? Since I broke my legs this summer. Mentally? Every fucking day. I fight with depression.

Are you craving something?
I am low on food (and money) atm, so most likely yes.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
hmmm.... superpowers?

Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
Good guestion. I know I want A kid or two. but TEN of them? nah, not worth it. It's rather 0 than 10. I can always get pets.

What do you hear right now?
Computer humming.

Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
no. I finally moved in to an apartment WITH A BEDROOM!?!?!? ASDFGH SO COOL! So I can freely put it in the middle of the fucking room oh hell yez!

What’s on your mind right now?
I am so fucking bored right now.

Are you there for your friends?
Definitely. But sadly that goes one way.

Last person to see you cry?
My mom maybe?

What do you do when you get nervous?
Tap my feet, fiddle my fingers and try to look at absolutely nothing.

Be honest, do you like people in general?
oooh, a toughie. Hmm... I have personal experience enough to teach me that most people are absolutely horrible spawns of satan. but I really, really grave for company.... Although nowadays my ability to intake human contact has been notably decreased... To be honest, my opinion is "Everyone is an asshole untill proven not so" so yeah. I hate people. I only tolerate my friends.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
I have no fucking idea. That poor bastard who wishes to be in relationship with me... No really, I am the miss personality I guarantee, but I am fat, ugly and annoying as fuck. but maybe there is someone to see past that. When? Well, I gotta get the "sane" approval from my docs, get my shit together... Maybe after another 10 years and more? I would love children, don't get me wrong, I am not just the #1 suitor to carry your babies.

Does anyone completely understand you?
No.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
I am an easy smiler. I could smile with no reason what so ever.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
Yasha did...

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?
I don't really know. Because none of my problems are self caused. So even if I did rewind time, the bad people would still find me. and hurt me. and cheat on me. and call me names.

Do you tell your mum or dad everything?
absolutely. I love my parents. If it weren't for my mom, I would be six feed under right now. I have chickened out from killing myself in thoughts of my mom, and once my mom physically tore the knife off my hands. So yes. She fucking deserves some goddamn respect.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
No. I really couldn't care less. Although, it makes the men semen taste bad.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
Very likely. I have a magnet that pulls all the assholes to me.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Mikko and Janne. although it was never a "relationship" with either of them. Friends with benefits?

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
I tend to be in the present. Sometimes past, but NEVER future.

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
A LOT. Normally around 12 hours. But since my depression, it's not unlikely of me to sleep 19 hours a day.

Are you easy to get along with?
Absolutely. I make no first impressions and I don't stereotype people. I know how to merge in to any company. I am full on friend material.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
no. She's cool.

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
cola? mixed berries juice?

What size bed do you have?
120cm wide.

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
I always start the shower first. Feel it until it is warm/hot and then get in. I hate cold showers.

Do you like the rain?
nah, not really. It's cold.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Lol no.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
I guess smoking. But god am I thankful I did. You may not understand it, but the decision to start smoking was the best decision I have ever done in life! I have a reason to wake up in the morning: I need a smoke. Oh, you are a smoker? Mind if I join you? May I offer a cigarette as a act of kindness? Oh, I am so lonely, but I see we have something in common, mind if I share a seat? Oh, I know we are locked in the asylum, and you are crazy, but hey! You can't touch me! I smuggle in all the smokes! Oh it's so wonderful to have people with similar problems as a support, I am so glad I met you in the smoking spot. I am so glad that smoking allows me a reason to meet you, even if I lack any better reason to! I LOVE the sociability of smoking!

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?
goodie goodie. wait.... Bad news? I am funny, but I am also talkative and annoying. I have a feeling that EVERYONE hates me behind my back. I may feel like all is good, but I don't think I am wanted company... At least I have never heard someone say "Oh gosh, this party just got so much better since you came around! Oh did I miss you! You are the man!"
I don't think that anyone has ever invited me to anywhere. I have just tagged along. So I guess I am this bad news leech who just tries to push in. Well, at least I am super polite, drama free mother bird.

Who were you last in the car with, besides family?
Morso.

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
Wolverine 2 with Mikko.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
YES! So fucking bad! I am STILL in therapy because of that mother fucker. Please die.

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?
probably not. I don't have friends enough for a party... Although, if I published invitation to a huge house with many beds at a fur forum, I bet at least SOMEONE would eventually show up.

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
Ugh neither. I am not a social butterfly. My depression just went all "Oh not that shit." on me.

Do you care too much about your appearance?
Zero. Well okay, I shave, make sure my hair is clean, I make sure I AM clean. But I honestly do not stress about my looks. I put on some clothes, and I do what I have to do. Jesus, if I survived ALIVE today, then it's already a good day. I give no shits about what I wear. I simply don't have energy to worry about that too!

Are you a jealous person?
Nah.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
nope.

Do you miss anyone?
Yes. I am always lonely.

Last person who made you cry?
mom. I was explaining to her how I feel while depressed. She listened. I cried. My mom is an angel.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Sleeping. Mostly. I might watch netflix or play some skyrim tho'.

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
anyone is fine.

Do you like cotton candy?
yeah.

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
Morso.

Do you have siblings?
Two. Little sister and an older step brother ( lol first time I called him "step" brother").

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
yes.

How has the past week been for you?
Very uneventful.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
I filled a meme. I drew some. I watched netflix.

What is your current mood?
very blank. Slightly heavy. bored.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Lol I haven't talked to anybody!

Will this week be a good one?
probably not.

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?
Eurofurence?

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
lol no.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
absolutely not.