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11 years ago
Feel free to not read this, if you don't really want to know about my life. I just feel like talking about things a bit. I welcome comments and such, but they aren't necessary.
This last week in particular has been weird for me. I might just be hyper emotional, but yea.
I've been searching (unsuccessfully) for a job. It's been almost 3 years, maybe 4, I don't remember anymore. It's been a long time though, and let me tell you, that really wears on a person. Especially when you can see that it's wearing more on your spouse. He works so hard to keep us in a home, to feed us, to provide everything we need, and it really gets hard for him.
I won't get into the details of our marriage though. Those are things we've agreed are only between us.
Except for sex, because honestly, who doesn't talk about it when it rocks? (If you're one of the people who doesn't talk about it, how can you not? Like, seriously, I want to know how! XD )
But yea, the job situation has made things really hard. I've been out of work so long that nowhere takes my application seriously, no matter how hard I push. I've called and called and called, but it always seems like there's someone better. And maybe it's just the timing. A lot of people are out of jobs right now. I get that. Everyone is vying for the same spots.
But, we bought a car two nights ago. Like, out of the blue, my parents found this awesome deal. So they helped us come up with the money that night, because they knew it would be gone if we didn't. Hubby is thrilled. It's almost the exact same vehicle that he had when we first started living together. But that's another story in and of itself, and one that makes me too pissed off to talk about.
Thing with the car is, now our insurance has gone up. Quite a bit, I think. My grandparents say it's still a really good deal, considering that it's 2 cars AND our renter's insurance (which we have to have where we are). I guess it could be worse. Could be better, too, though.
I want to get back to writing. So bad. I've been in such a slump with it lately, and I'm a little embarrassed of the things I've written recently (no content, all smut). It was fun, I enjoyed writing it, but I don't want people to thing that's ALL that I write. It's not. It's just all I've done lately. I outlined a plot for a story I've been mulling over the last few weeks, so I want to start on that soon. Like, really soon. But, I won't be able to upload it anywhere, since I want to publish it eventually.
On the other hand, I'm so down tonight, that everything I want to write will just come out with a dreary, sad, overtone. And that's not fair to anyone who reads it. Not because of that tone, but because if people read my work for that tone, it's not something that will be there all the time.
How do you guys handle the nights when you're feeling particularly down, or beaten? What helps?
When I started writing this, I was honestly going to talk about the whole week. But then I realized that all the things I wanted to talk about from the week aren't really appropriate, or don't really matter.
We had D&D last night. My dice were assholes. Brand new dice, and the first good roll they have all night is to knock out a party member. Go figure. Every other roll with them was a fail, except that ONE, which I very nearly critted with. (First roll against her, nat 20. Confirmation roll 3 away from what I needed to succeed. Glad I didn't) We very quickly deteriorated into sex jokes and such, which happens way more often than I'd like to admit. No matter WHO is involved in the game. You'd think that the fact there's a guy in our group old enough to be our father would sway us to behave, but NOPE. He joins right in. And it's hilarious.
And apparently everyone thinks that all my characters have huge boobs? Not entirely sure why, but yea. That came up at least 3 times last night. She's also the youngest in the party. On accident.
Saturday we had our fire pit. It was enjoyable, especially after going to two cookouts during the day. My god, there was SO much food. And it's still sitting in our fridge. Might try to pawn it off on the roommate before it goes bad. I know he'll enjoy it. But yea. It was a good day all around. Got to see all the family on my side, then most of the family on the hubby's side. Everyone was really happy to see us, and us them. I was really glad that no one felt it was necessary to harass me about when I'm having kids. I love my family, but when that subject comes up, I just get irritated.
Anyway, that's really all that happened that was exciting this week. And all I can smell is pizza right now, and it's making me so hungry again. But I can't have any. Or rather, I won't ask. I'll maybe make some popcorn. Maybe.
I want to watch more Heroes... and I want my shows to come back...
I'm done now. I feel somewhat better. Maybe I can actually go get some writing done. If it's not related to the book I want to do, and not completely smut, maybe I'll upload it. Since I'm not feeling pixels right now.
This last week in particular has been weird for me. I might just be hyper emotional, but yea.
I've been searching (unsuccessfully) for a job. It's been almost 3 years, maybe 4, I don't remember anymore. It's been a long time though, and let me tell you, that really wears on a person. Especially when you can see that it's wearing more on your spouse. He works so hard to keep us in a home, to feed us, to provide everything we need, and it really gets hard for him.
I won't get into the details of our marriage though. Those are things we've agreed are only between us.
Except for sex, because honestly, who doesn't talk about it when it rocks? (If you're one of the people who doesn't talk about it, how can you not? Like, seriously, I want to know how! XD )
But yea, the job situation has made things really hard. I've been out of work so long that nowhere takes my application seriously, no matter how hard I push. I've called and called and called, but it always seems like there's someone better. And maybe it's just the timing. A lot of people are out of jobs right now. I get that. Everyone is vying for the same spots.
But, we bought a car two nights ago. Like, out of the blue, my parents found this awesome deal. So they helped us come up with the money that night, because they knew it would be gone if we didn't. Hubby is thrilled. It's almost the exact same vehicle that he had when we first started living together. But that's another story in and of itself, and one that makes me too pissed off to talk about.
Thing with the car is, now our insurance has gone up. Quite a bit, I think. My grandparents say it's still a really good deal, considering that it's 2 cars AND our renter's insurance (which we have to have where we are). I guess it could be worse. Could be better, too, though.
I want to get back to writing. So bad. I've been in such a slump with it lately, and I'm a little embarrassed of the things I've written recently (no content, all smut). It was fun, I enjoyed writing it, but I don't want people to thing that's ALL that I write. It's not. It's just all I've done lately. I outlined a plot for a story I've been mulling over the last few weeks, so I want to start on that soon. Like, really soon. But, I won't be able to upload it anywhere, since I want to publish it eventually.
On the other hand, I'm so down tonight, that everything I want to write will just come out with a dreary, sad, overtone. And that's not fair to anyone who reads it. Not because of that tone, but because if people read my work for that tone, it's not something that will be there all the time.
How do you guys handle the nights when you're feeling particularly down, or beaten? What helps?
When I started writing this, I was honestly going to talk about the whole week. But then I realized that all the things I wanted to talk about from the week aren't really appropriate, or don't really matter.
We had D&D last night. My dice were assholes. Brand new dice, and the first good roll they have all night is to knock out a party member. Go figure. Every other roll with them was a fail, except that ONE, which I very nearly critted with. (First roll against her, nat 20. Confirmation roll 3 away from what I needed to succeed. Glad I didn't) We very quickly deteriorated into sex jokes and such, which happens way more often than I'd like to admit. No matter WHO is involved in the game. You'd think that the fact there's a guy in our group old enough to be our father would sway us to behave, but NOPE. He joins right in. And it's hilarious.
And apparently everyone thinks that all my characters have huge boobs? Not entirely sure why, but yea. That came up at least 3 times last night. She's also the youngest in the party. On accident.
Saturday we had our fire pit. It was enjoyable, especially after going to two cookouts during the day. My god, there was SO much food. And it's still sitting in our fridge. Might try to pawn it off on the roommate before it goes bad. I know he'll enjoy it. But yea. It was a good day all around. Got to see all the family on my side, then most of the family on the hubby's side. Everyone was really happy to see us, and us them. I was really glad that no one felt it was necessary to harass me about when I'm having kids. I love my family, but when that subject comes up, I just get irritated.
Anyway, that's really all that happened that was exciting this week. And all I can smell is pizza right now, and it's making me so hungry again. But I can't have any. Or rather, I won't ask. I'll maybe make some popcorn. Maybe.
I want to watch more Heroes... and I want my shows to come back...
I'm done now. I feel somewhat better. Maybe I can actually go get some writing done. If it's not related to the book I want to do, and not completely smut, maybe I'll upload it. Since I'm not feeling pixels right now.
Sounded like a fun time though, far as when feeling down or beaten talking it out with some trustworthy and who will listen helps I think. Bit harder for me, why I try games more. >.>
Didnt know was a writer though, ever post any work ya done?
It was fun =3 What about things that you can't really talk about?
I've got some writing over on dA, but I've long since lost the original files, and my style has changed a lot since then. But I used to do commissions for writing, probably about a year ago.
If do commissions for writing though, was trying to get into it. Could use help <.<
You're trying to do them? I'd love to help any way I can =3