So uh, yeah.

I know I've been saying I'm genderqueer for a while now, and uh... That hasn't really changed! I still more or less am (or I guess kind of non-binary?), but I've been estrogen for about a month and a half now and uh... It's something! Mostly good, but it's kind of a roller coaster!

I mean, when other trans folks tell you it's a second puberty, they aren't kidding! It really is, for all the good and bad that entails. So, everything feels really amazing, sensory-wise and mentally (nowhere nearly as quite to anger), and my libido isn't this horribly rampant thing anymore that I -have- to take care of, buuuuut... The valleys are hard to deal with; they've always been difficult, because I am by my nature, a very emotional person! But NOW, oooh, now... Now when I hit one, it's like everything short-circuits and I spend an entire day crying. -That- isn't too fun for me, andddd, where I'm with the 'mones right now, my libido is just.

Gone.

As in, I am lucky to get an erection with intense desire to do so for even a couple minutes. BUT, it just gives me an excuse to enjoy more sensory-play, makes kissing more enjoyable, stuff like that.

That said, my pronouns! Well, uhm. If you've spoken to me somewhat recently, you'll know I've using singular-they for a while, but female ones are feeling more and more comfortable as time goes on, too.

So really, they or she would be rad with me~ Not feeling he much anymore, honestly, even if I do like occasionally wearing a tweed suit and looking like an Oxford professor. ;3