I feel like my best friends iRL are all becoming more distant - I see myself looking in on the past and longing for those days when I felt that I could tell them anything in the world, now I just can't. They're so devoted to other people and I feel like I'm a joke because I'm ignored seventy percent of the time. I feel like crap. Look at me, the feelingless thing to laugh at, knowing she'll always hide her true feelings behind a stupid grin.

All I need is one true friend outside of the Internet - anyone - who will accept me for who I am and not completely shut me out.