I want a boyfriend. An RL boyfriend. It's just so hard to find one. I've never been so lonely in my life. Ugh, I sound so pathetic but I don't care anymore. I apologise for my last journal it's just.... I've been bulied and fucked over so much as a kid that it's grown hard to trust people. Suddenly I just don't care anymore. everything's just so dull now. I've lost interest in everything. Hell, even my food tastes the same. Everything just... suddenly doesn't matter anymore.