Well today my mate Jast, well....he is straight, he has been lying to himself for the two years we have been together, i don't blame him or am mad at him, part of me always kind of knew that it was to good to be true, to find the guy, the guy i thought i could love forever and i thought was perfect, yet i let myself fall for it, and even for two years I always asked him if he ever felt trapped by being in a relationship with me with our distance, he was able to visit easily but never could, nor could he love me as I him. But I don't blame him for i loved him and im happy that he can now hopefully truly be happy