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Confession and admission?
11 years ago
Whatever you're doing, drop it because...
Oh, boy. Here we go.
The past few months, indeed this last year, have taught me something about myself - something I consider important.
I'm kind of a terrible person. Before I went to college, I didn't have many friends outside the internet. I still don't, but that's beside the point.
The point is, I've been hurting my friends on the internet through negligence. That is to say, I just plain don't really talk to them much anymore, if at all. Whenever I think about this, or look at this behavior, it hurts me as well, because I know what it's like to have someone you care about just...stop. Stop talking to you, stop hanging out with you, whatever.
About the internet friends thing. Now that I have friends in real life, ones in closer proximity than ~12-14 hours away by car, I've come to realize that the whole 'furry' thing isn't as important to me anymore. I won't deny that it's still a part of me, I just feel like I have more important things to deal with. Trying to manage two different 'lives' while keeping them separate may be beyond my ability.
I can think of a number of people that I regret not getting to know better, or not 'hang out' with more often. Those people I met on livestreams and such, I really did enjoy that. Even if I kind of acted like an idiot some of the time.
But there are at least two people now that stand out more than them. One of which I've already apologized to, just to realize I've done it all over again.
I want to say that I'm sorry I fell back into this, but do I deserve your forgiveness? Again?
In conclusion...I guess I could say I'm just...on an indefinite hiatus while I try to sort out my mess in the real world. I hope those I once called 'friend' understand that I would still like to consider you as such, if you're willing to deal with a fool like me.
Words can really only go so far, but...I am sorry to those that I've hurt this way. I don't believe there is an appropriate excuse.
The past few months, indeed this last year, have taught me something about myself - something I consider important.
I'm kind of a terrible person. Before I went to college, I didn't have many friends outside the internet. I still don't, but that's beside the point.
The point is, I've been hurting my friends on the internet through negligence. That is to say, I just plain don't really talk to them much anymore, if at all. Whenever I think about this, or look at this behavior, it hurts me as well, because I know what it's like to have someone you care about just...stop. Stop talking to you, stop hanging out with you, whatever.
About the internet friends thing. Now that I have friends in real life, ones in closer proximity than ~12-14 hours away by car, I've come to realize that the whole 'furry' thing isn't as important to me anymore. I won't deny that it's still a part of me, I just feel like I have more important things to deal with. Trying to manage two different 'lives' while keeping them separate may be beyond my ability.
I can think of a number of people that I regret not getting to know better, or not 'hang out' with more often. Those people I met on livestreams and such, I really did enjoy that. Even if I kind of acted like an idiot some of the time.
But there are at least two people now that stand out more than them. One of which I've already apologized to, just to realize I've done it all over again.
I want to say that I'm sorry I fell back into this, but do I deserve your forgiveness? Again?
In conclusion...I guess I could say I'm just...on an indefinite hiatus while I try to sort out my mess in the real world. I hope those I once called 'friend' understand that I would still like to consider you as such, if you're willing to deal with a fool like me.
Words can really only go so far, but...I am sorry to those that I've hurt this way. I don't believe there is an appropriate excuse.
Altallo
~altallo
the truest friends always forgive each other
Thrakos
~thrakos
Well that explains your disappearance!
