Any more I feel hurt. I am seeing friends leave me for reasons I don't know why. Ones that I have know for years and ones that I been there when they needed some one the most. Some tell me "If you ever need someone to talk to when your feeling depressed just talk to me.", but when I do I don't get a reply. Lately I have been feeling depressed. Big time and it seems I have no one to talk to. Did I do some thing wrong? I understand people have things to do and are busy. I have told some what has been going on but things have been getting worse to the point that I can't get it off my mind. Any more I am stuck in my house cause of money issues and truck issue ( yes I am still driving my old truck that has problems and ever time I get money for another truck some thing comes up and I have to use that money for something else). Right now I have been just trying to patch up my truck and get by with it. As for the money issue ever time I do something to better myself it seems like it doesn't work. One idea cost me over $700 while the others don't even work out or plays into someone else favor. Right now I feel like giving up with other things that has been running through my mind but I keep on thinking that there might be a end to this bad luck that I have been having all year. One of the only thing that keeps me going is the New Years Fur bash at the end of this year. I hope that it has a good turn out. All of that is just the beginning of what's on my mind that got me down. I don't want to complain to much and have people leave cause of it just I don't know what to do. Sorry to have vented.