This is kind of a rant in the people department.
See, I have problem with people... I don't have anything to do, really, so I don't go out much... And when I do I'm generally nice to people (in the odd chance I interact with them) and I can even muster up the courage to comment or complement about something on occasion.
But I'm just not any good at making friends... Yes, I've made friends that are women, but I just never have a chance. They're usually already with someone and when they're not... I just can't seem to make a connection past similar interests (if I'm even THAT lucky).
How the hell am I supposed to convey interest without looking like a total fucking imbecile? Every time I've opened up to someone about liking them they tell me someone else they know has already asked them out and are going to hook up with them. Or I'm just breaching the friend line and someone else pops into the picture and all of a sudden I'm completely forgotten.
Like I'm invisible...
Therein lies my major problem, I guess... I'm just too fucking invisible.
Never seen.
Never heard.
Unless someone wants something from me, of course.
That seems to be the way my life is; not wanted or needed until someone remembers "oh, yea, Rob knows/has this." Then I'm thrown aside like an unwanted toy...
I tend to joke, be comedic, in general be as funny as I can to make others laugh and smile...
But honestly... I'm pretty much always depressed.
I don't have Depression, I'll say that right now. Even on my worst days I still function, though more like an automaton than a jester.
I'm not expecting a whole lot out of this, I just needed to get it out... (another perk of this life, I guess, is low expectations...)