I think there's only so much you can do before you can't advance anymore without some external force imparting some ability onto you and I'm afraid I've hit it...
I've never been very good drawing people, and at this point anatomy can only get me so far. I've been trying for the past couple days to do figure drawing stuff and using the new armature I bought and it all just looks like shit... nothing looks right, proportions are all over the place and body parts just don't line up the way they should. and i haven't even gotten to doing detail work. gods, the last time I did detail work that was amazing (let alone good enough to be proud of) was an eye and that was some time last year. I can do monster stuff okay but even then, when I get to coloring; fuck all, it just looks bad. it's sloppy, the colors are bland as hell...

I don't want to stop drawing, but without some real help I don't think I'll be able to get anywhere... ;~; all anyone says is the same bullshit of "keep going" "you'll get better" "do this/that" or they tell me to go to some site that's supposed to help but is complete trash and.... it's just tearing me down... I don't have anything to draw and any time I do have the urge it never comes out right; so what the fuck should I do? TT^TT I can't help but get frustrated and start crying and I feel like all I've done is just an utter waste... just like me.....

....fuck...