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Help...please...stress...
16 years ago
First and foremost READ!!!!!
Reread the whole whole journal please its annoyign to get mad about stuff you...misunderstand..please just read ALL OF IT and THINK it over before going all out and get all....angry.
Reread the whole whole journal please its annoyign to get mad about stuff you...misunderstand..please just read ALL OF IT and THINK it over before going all out and get all....angry.
Ok....first of all. Im sorry if ive been bothersome to you.
Ok well....the thing is im pissed...VERY pissed. I mean the one person I dont want to think about like that is just in my mind half the time but not in lust or love but...jealously.
So most of the time I end up pacing around the house listening to music and just poking at things out of pure boredom and then..."he" enters my mind...all the things he can do...all the things i wanted to with him...it pisses me off and then i end up having to listening to this really..."ugh" song just to release some frustration. But thats not the bad part.
The bad part is that I have a bf who I love but...that damn guy gets in the way. I mean it makes me second guess my feelings for him when the gets into my mind.
I fucking it i seriously do...and all that shit about how good pussy is and shit is annoying...fuck that shit. I know how to keep my pants on like some people. I dont care if this contridicts the way I assume is my motto...that is just....ugh!!!
Not onl that but when you have a guy who you wanted to marry tell you how he feels "now".....
Then when i say the exact same thing he said to me it feels like i did something wrong...
wtf how does that work anyways?
just fuck it... i eamn if it bothers you that much i just wanna be friends and shit then go.....*sigh*....i hate not be mad....
too much stress in life from all this shit...
Ok well....the thing is im pissed...VERY pissed. I mean the one person I dont want to think about like that is just in my mind half the time but not in lust or love but...jealously.
So most of the time I end up pacing around the house listening to music and just poking at things out of pure boredom and then..."he" enters my mind...all the things he can do...all the things i wanted to with him...it pisses me off and then i end up having to listening to this really..."ugh" song just to release some frustration. But thats not the bad part.
The bad part is that I have a bf who I love but...that damn guy gets in the way. I mean it makes me second guess my feelings for him when the gets into my mind.
I fucking it i seriously do...and all that shit about how good pussy is and shit is annoying...fuck that shit. I know how to keep my pants on like some people. I dont care if this contridicts the way I assume is my motto...that is just....ugh!!!
Not onl that but when you have a guy who you wanted to marry tell you how he feels "now".....
Then when i say the exact same thing he said to me it feels like i did something wrong...
wtf how does that work anyways?
just fuck it... i eamn if it bothers you that much i just wanna be friends and shit then go.....*sigh*....i hate not be mad....
too much stress in life from all this shit...
~Otaku-Man
Look it up sometime. The AMV is called "Something Fishy"
~Otaku-Man
Since breaking up with my first ex, thought I was young and still slightly am, it was a mind fuck to me. Plus I've had my heart broken a few times and since then, I've never kept a relationship well. Mainly because I still, even if I have someone, want more...I want to try and find that level of happiness that I see constantly but I can't seem to keep it going to reach that and I think its me all the time...I've even lusted, basically, over artists because of their fursonas and art and over all popularity then smacked myself back into reality of "your nothing, adam/draken, get a life."
It sucks but you gotta hold on.
But this isn't about my troubles *chuckles and huggles again* Just forget about the other...in a way its because of those feelings. You have everything, and its good. The other guy is just a linger want left over from seeing everyone where you are now.
BED SORES HURT, DON'T DO! xD
And from all the comments and replies I read from you, you sound like a fighter!
things like this take time and patience, and most important of all patience with yourself.
~Xen
I'm feeling this in this exact moment