No no...I'm not leaving this site or anything. Today my mom and little sister left to head to North Carolina...I stayed behind here in San Diego. It was so hard not to cry as I was saying good bye to my mom...I've never lived alone or away fr my family before, so it's been excruciating this whole leaving our home business...

I emptied what I had left in my deserted house, and will now be spending a week with a good friend...then another week or two in my car...homeless. Until my other good friends studio is open to me next month. Then I'll have a home that I can afford...but still...I feel so lonely...sure I have my awesome friends who have been constantly helping me through all this, and they're partially why I stayed behind...but I still feel so alone and depressed...I hate where life has taken me, my family...everything...

I only hope things will finally start to look up for us all as we face a new beginning in our lives.

I'm sure no one here will comment, but I just had to write my feelings if only for myself...I wish it didn't have to be this way...