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11 years ago
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So... Not a really good thing to talk about for my first journal, but I feel it's a significant event in my life to talk about. So there's this person on my Steam that I've been good friends with for the latter part of about 2 years or so. Just recently, I got a message from her account that said this:
Monday, October 20, 2014
6:36 PM - dead: Hello. This is Katie's friend, who I share the account with but never go on. I have some unfortunate news. katie, the owner of this steam account, has commited suicide. It was believed to be an overdose, as a bottle of pills was found next to her body. Why she did it is an unanswered question. If you have any information on why, please pass it on to me so I can share it with the police. Thank you, and sorry for what happened.
So as you can imagine, I'm very shocked by this. I kept trying to tell myself that this isn't real, that this is a whole joke. But now that more of it starts to sink in, I'm starting to think that this could be real. We all have things along the way in our lives that are like huge cracks in the road. But, because time will always move on, we will have to move along with it. "Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard". And that is what I need help with. Don't think I'm doing this for attention. I just wanted to pour this out on words so the decaying of my heart can slow down. Please try and help me get through this if you can. I don't need another depression after breaking up with my girlfriend about a month ago.
*EDIT* (2 hours later)
I wish I could have talked to her more. We were pretty good friends, even if we didn't talk or do much with each other. She would basically message me about once a month, and we would have brief conversations... but that was it. Her friends talked to me more than we talked to each other. It was a really big surprise that I made it on her "besties" list a few months ago. We really started to talk alot the past month or 2, and I really thought we would start to develop an actual friendship. But that opportunity was cut short. Like I said before, "We all have things along the way in our lives that are like huge cracks in the road. But, because time will always move on, we will have to move along with it. 'Moving on is a simple thing, but what it leaves behind is hard'." Time is like an out-of-control beast that we have hold onto for the ride as it goes along to crush everything in its path. Our job, is to tame that beast. And together, I bet we can do that.
Monday, October 20, 2014
6:36 PM - dead: Hello. This is Katie's friend, who I share the account with but never go on. I have some unfortunate news. katie, the owner of this steam account, has commited suicide. It was believed to be an overdose, as a bottle of pills was found next to her body. Why she did it is an unanswered question. If you have any information on why, please pass it on to me so I can share it with the police. Thank you, and sorry for what happened.
So as you can imagine, I'm very shocked by this. I kept trying to tell myself that this isn't real, that this is a whole joke. But now that more of it starts to sink in, I'm starting to think that this could be real. We all have things along the way in our lives that are like huge cracks in the road. But, because time will always move on, we will have to move along with it. "Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard". And that is what I need help with. Don't think I'm doing this for attention. I just wanted to pour this out on words so the decaying of my heart can slow down. Please try and help me get through this if you can. I don't need another depression after breaking up with my girlfriend about a month ago.
*EDIT* (2 hours later)
I wish I could have talked to her more. We were pretty good friends, even if we didn't talk or do much with each other. She would basically message me about once a month, and we would have brief conversations... but that was it. Her friends talked to me more than we talked to each other. It was a really big surprise that I made it on her "besties" list a few months ago. We really started to talk alot the past month or 2, and I really thought we would start to develop an actual friendship. But that opportunity was cut short. Like I said before, "We all have things along the way in our lives that are like huge cracks in the road. But, because time will always move on, we will have to move along with it. 'Moving on is a simple thing, but what it leaves behind is hard'." Time is like an out-of-control beast that we have hold onto for the ride as it goes along to crush everything in its path. Our job, is to tame that beast. And together, I bet we can do that.
