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kind of an update but this is kinda really negative so
11 years ago
Ah...I'm not really feeling it today, and i have today and tomorrow to get commissions finished. I'm just kinda too depressed to focus on anything, and i have so much to do.
I have that big commission which still isn't finished, the commissioner is very picky, critiques ever little thing like the anatomy and what she wants doesn't make sense and is difficult to achieve while making everything make sens with my art style. i should have seen this coming when she aid she wanted to commission me but wanted something less 'cartoony'. her commission is just so overwhelming it hurts honestly. note to my future self, if you see problems with a future commission again, decline the commission.
I also have a smaller-ish commission for a friend to do, which shouldn't be difficult. i just have to get started on it, which is the hard part right now.
and i might be going over to my girlfriend's because she needs help with taking pictures of her shoes and stuff so she can sell them, but i have to be home at a certain time and she won't text me back so i don't even know if i can go over there today.
tomorrow i'm doing my laundry and getting packed for my little week long vacation with my grandparents, which won't be any less stressful because my grandma is so mean and rude towards my grandpa and i. let's not forget the fact that i'm still partially in the closet due to fear of being thrown out onto the streets or worse living with my mom again, who's an alcoholic and constantly misgenders me on purpose because she doesn't want to accept me as i am, plus she's in a relationship again and when she's in a relationship all of her personal values fly out the window, forgetting what's important to her until she's completely dried up and abandoned. i can't live with that again, so i have to stay in the closet and deal with my grandparents transphobic, homophobic, ultra-religious, white supremacist views until i can somehow manage to live on my own.
wow this is more negative and longer than i thought it would be.
i'm sorry.
i kinda just
needed to vent
also to say that i'd be out of town for a week
yeah.......hoepfully i'll update something positive in the near future to get this negativity off my page.
I have that big commission which still isn't finished, the commissioner is very picky, critiques ever little thing like the anatomy and what she wants doesn't make sense and is difficult to achieve while making everything make sens with my art style. i should have seen this coming when she aid she wanted to commission me but wanted something less 'cartoony'. her commission is just so overwhelming it hurts honestly. note to my future self, if you see problems with a future commission again, decline the commission.
I also have a smaller-ish commission for a friend to do, which shouldn't be difficult. i just have to get started on it, which is the hard part right now.
and i might be going over to my girlfriend's because she needs help with taking pictures of her shoes and stuff so she can sell them, but i have to be home at a certain time and she won't text me back so i don't even know if i can go over there today.
tomorrow i'm doing my laundry and getting packed for my little week long vacation with my grandparents, which won't be any less stressful because my grandma is so mean and rude towards my grandpa and i. let's not forget the fact that i'm still partially in the closet due to fear of being thrown out onto the streets or worse living with my mom again, who's an alcoholic and constantly misgenders me on purpose because she doesn't want to accept me as i am, plus she's in a relationship again and when she's in a relationship all of her personal values fly out the window, forgetting what's important to her until she's completely dried up and abandoned. i can't live with that again, so i have to stay in the closet and deal with my grandparents transphobic, homophobic, ultra-religious, white supremacist views until i can somehow manage to live on my own.
wow this is more negative and longer than i thought it would be.
i'm sorry.
i kinda just
needed to vent
also to say that i'd be out of town for a week
yeah.......hoepfully i'll update something positive in the near future to get this negativity off my page.
