When a man has nothing to reach for as a goal what is the meaning to live.

The air force is a bust, due to medial reasons i can't join. I quit my quackdolands job due to it being hella stressful and have a nice quiet guard job at a local casino.

The downside or upside depending on who you are, I have became much more aggressive, to those who know me know that In the past i had a flood gate of emotions that would be held back. I wouldn't cause drama, i wouldn't rarely pin someone down and go overly yiffy with someone out of the blue. That dam has burst, watch out or come and get me depends on who you are really. If you don't want it, say so I am still me, just..abit more like house. Cranky, I am going to be saving up money to get a car, maybe see some local friends that are around.

TO those who have been trying to contact me or wonder why i haven't been talking, Just been quite stressful. I'll try to get in touch with everyone Sorry. Its not your falt, there is no need to say sorry or what not just..Give hugs or whatever you feel like actions for me speak louder then reading someone say sry.

I leave with a song quotes That has touched me.

In my darkest hours I could not foresee
That the tide could turn so fast to this degree
Can't believe my eyes
How can you be so blind?
Is the heart of stone, no empathy inside?
Time keeps on slipping away and we haven't learned
So in the end now what have we gained?

Are they themselves to blame, the misery, the pain?
Didn't we let go, allowed it, let it grow?
If we can't restrain the beast which dwells inside
it will find it's way somehow, somewhere in time
Will we remember all of the suffering
Cause if we fail it will be in vain