hate him, not yourself.

Lots of love and support from your watchers! Depression is truly awful to deal with, I know how bad it can get. In my experience, it's really important to put aside the things you feel like you have to do while you focus entirely on healing and doing what you have to do to feel better. Nobody looks back on depression and blames themselves - really, take all the hate you direct at yourself and focus it outwards on the things that actually hurt you, or the external things that make you hurt yourself. Be aggressive about getting better. You deserve it. You've inspired a lot of people with your art. Plus, by being an artist who posts on FA, you've contributed to building a community where people with marginalized interests can feel safe!

Could you repost your response to my comment here? I didn't get to see what you said before you deleted it.

You shouldn't be afraid to lean on your community. Depression is a serious thing which is often ignored or, annoyingly, faked by some who then cause it to not be taken seriously as it should. Your depression, plus what I'm sensing is some kind of identity to your negative state?, isn't going to be simply ignored by people like us. You're a fur, like us, on a furry site doing furry things. Generally, there's little chance of the people who enjoy your work turning against you in your time of need (and if someone does, they're a pretty big dick in an unfun way).

So next time he comes to light, don't be afraid to turn to us all. We care enough to spam your journal with supporting comments, don't we? :P Besides, might know a trick or two for dealing with other sides of you but maybe come to me if it's extremely serious... The tricks have nasty side effects both if they work or fail...