:( I hate my random sad rants..... I hate the holidays.... I hate family.... I hate be sad.... I hate my self hate the world.... my birthday is soon .... I gotta be a adult soon I'm not ready ..... seriously..... I feel like I'm a failure in life I'm running in circles .... I think my boyfriend too good for me ..... I still hope heavenly father takes me home soon.... ( not gonna hurt myself tried to many times and I'm still here gave up at the age 14 ) .... :/ standing alone isn't easy if you have done it your hole life....