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[Vent & Update] Just so we're clear...
11 years ago
First. I need to vent. It's not something I like having to do, but I'm in fucking tears right now. I'm not going into detail why.... I'm not going to name names. But I'm going to lay this fucking issue out now, so that I know where everything and everyone stands.
From now on.... I am not doing this Master / Pet thing anymore. Not for real. Not for roleplay. Not even for the heck of it, just to jokingly give titles. If I want someone to have that honor, I will ask them and let them know how I feel.... and it will only be after I have known them long enough, and if they feel the same way about me. If someone asks me, I will consider it, but again.... these conditions will be met, or it will be denied.
That being said, I'm exerting the same rule with people I consider close to me. I've been hurt one too many times, and quite frankly, today, I'm just... pushed over the edge. I've been trying to fix my situation. I've been trying to dig myself out of homelessness before winter fully hits. This puts a lot of pressure on me. And I look to people sometimes to help cope with the many emotions that pressure forces out. So... if someone asks to be a mate, a lover... hell, even a regular breeding buddy in roleplay, I am going to start an interview process for such. I'm tired of being discarded, abandoned.... made to feel unimportant. And I'm done crying over it.
To take things off the rage and tears that are overcoming me right now, I have found work. A local McDonalds. Today was my second day, and it was not a nice day, between a corporate inspection, a shortage of people by about 4 callouts, and being given a crash course on their lovely computer systems. Suffice it to say, I've come away from this day feeling sick and nearly panicked from the amount of stress, and the last thing I needed was for someone I considered a friend to up and just end things without even discussing anything with me. Again, not naming names, and I'm not saying any further on the matter..... I'm not going to be the cause of a flame war or any drama. But it was the breaking point, and right now, any semblance of a good mood despite how hard today was is all but shattered now.
I'm still needing to get through November, food-wise.... my first paycheck will be withheld by the company. It's understandable that they stagger such things, but in my situation, it doesn't bode well for food, gasoline, and recently, additional blankets or anything that could help with the rapidly-dropping temperatures here. So if anyone has anything to spare... please contact me. If not, I understand.... and I will not hold it against anyone. I hate having to keep asking for help like this, considering I know many others out there have their own expenses and hardships to deal with. I am simply reaching out, is all.
I will keep things up to date as much as I can.
And yes, storywriting is still underway. It's just paused again, because this new job had to take precedence. I will try to get something up by the month's end, at latest.
From now on.... I am not doing this Master / Pet thing anymore. Not for real. Not for roleplay. Not even for the heck of it, just to jokingly give titles. If I want someone to have that honor, I will ask them and let them know how I feel.... and it will only be after I have known them long enough, and if they feel the same way about me. If someone asks me, I will consider it, but again.... these conditions will be met, or it will be denied.
That being said, I'm exerting the same rule with people I consider close to me. I've been hurt one too many times, and quite frankly, today, I'm just... pushed over the edge. I've been trying to fix my situation. I've been trying to dig myself out of homelessness before winter fully hits. This puts a lot of pressure on me. And I look to people sometimes to help cope with the many emotions that pressure forces out. So... if someone asks to be a mate, a lover... hell, even a regular breeding buddy in roleplay, I am going to start an interview process for such. I'm tired of being discarded, abandoned.... made to feel unimportant. And I'm done crying over it.
To take things off the rage and tears that are overcoming me right now, I have found work. A local McDonalds. Today was my second day, and it was not a nice day, between a corporate inspection, a shortage of people by about 4 callouts, and being given a crash course on their lovely computer systems. Suffice it to say, I've come away from this day feeling sick and nearly panicked from the amount of stress, and the last thing I needed was for someone I considered a friend to up and just end things without even discussing anything with me. Again, not naming names, and I'm not saying any further on the matter..... I'm not going to be the cause of a flame war or any drama. But it was the breaking point, and right now, any semblance of a good mood despite how hard today was is all but shattered now.
I'm still needing to get through November, food-wise.... my first paycheck will be withheld by the company. It's understandable that they stagger such things, but in my situation, it doesn't bode well for food, gasoline, and recently, additional blankets or anything that could help with the rapidly-dropping temperatures here. So if anyone has anything to spare... please contact me. If not, I understand.... and I will not hold it against anyone. I hate having to keep asking for help like this, considering I know many others out there have their own expenses and hardships to deal with. I am simply reaching out, is all.
I will keep things up to date as much as I can.
And yes, storywriting is still underway. It's just paused again, because this new job had to take precedence. I will try to get something up by the month's end, at latest.
Here if you need to talk hon even though we have hardly talked in recent times.
Hang in there *nosebumps firmly*