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Bwuh
11 years ago
Disliking people takes so much energy.
I get so tired of having negative emotions like that, of wasting the energy to have things AGAINST people. o<-<
Especially when there is just no solution to it, you know. People are gonna be the way they're gonna be. Some people are just gonna be assholes. Some people just won't get along with you. Some people just don't wANT to get along with you. Etc, etc.
So long as the bad stuff isn't brought up to my front door, I just would rather...... not care? Remain neutral. Be Switzerland.
Cuz I can feel it, you know? When I waste time being upset at people over things they do, when I spend time being ANGRY--it turns me mean. It makes me not want to be the best me I can be to people who I'm upset over. I can feel myself warring with the what I know I should do--how /I/ would want to be treated or dealt with--and with how spiteful I feel. And it's such a... idk, bad? Gross feeling to have. I don't want to ever be identified as a mean person.
I know I'm not perfect, and I know I'm not the nicest. But I also don't wanna be looked at as someone who is an asshole or rude, stuck up, etc. Okay, maybe I am a little stuck up about certain things... But I don't want that to define me. Overall I'd rather be friendly, like 75% approachable at least (laughs), helpful, honest, and continuously remain to treat others how I would like to be treated.
I want to be looked at as someone who is not only a good artist, but also 'pretty alright.'
So I'm just.... I'm letting all the shit go. I'm just gonna pick myself up and move elsewhere. Not care about things I can't fix or don't involve me. Focus on things that are positive and way better and cooler to be a part of.
fkjdlskfjsd;
soRRY TO UNLOAD SO MUCH?? Just idle thoughts I've been reflecting on a lot. Trying to keep myself in check and someone I can respect.
I want to be proud of myself and how I interact with and treat others!
I get so tired of having negative emotions like that, of wasting the energy to have things AGAINST people. o<-<
Especially when there is just no solution to it, you know. People are gonna be the way they're gonna be. Some people are just gonna be assholes. Some people just won't get along with you. Some people just don't wANT to get along with you. Etc, etc.
So long as the bad stuff isn't brought up to my front door, I just would rather...... not care? Remain neutral. Be Switzerland.
Cuz I can feel it, you know? When I waste time being upset at people over things they do, when I spend time being ANGRY--it turns me mean. It makes me not want to be the best me I can be to people who I'm upset over. I can feel myself warring with the what I know I should do--how /I/ would want to be treated or dealt with--and with how spiteful I feel. And it's such a... idk, bad? Gross feeling to have. I don't want to ever be identified as a mean person.
I know I'm not perfect, and I know I'm not the nicest. But I also don't wanna be looked at as someone who is an asshole or rude, stuck up, etc. Okay, maybe I am a little stuck up about certain things... But I don't want that to define me. Overall I'd rather be friendly, like 75% approachable at least (laughs), helpful, honest, and continuously remain to treat others how I would like to be treated.
I want to be looked at as someone who is not only a good artist, but also 'pretty alright.'
So I'm just.... I'm letting all the shit go. I'm just gonna pick myself up and move elsewhere. Not care about things I can't fix or don't involve me. Focus on things that are positive and way better and cooler to be a part of.
fkjdlskfjsd;
soRRY TO UNLOAD SO MUCH?? Just idle thoughts I've been reflecting on a lot. Trying to keep myself in check and someone I can respect.
I want to be proud of myself and how I interact with and treat others!
There is just someone in my life who.. is always popping back into it no matter what, and I just want nothing to do with them. And every time they pop up I get irritated/angry/etc all over again. A couple of weeks back them and their 'friends' tried to get me in trouble on a site I work for out of the blue, and it stressed me out a lot. Despite my namesake I don't liKE BEING ANGRY ALL THE TIME weeps;;;
There are just some people you shouldn't keep trying with.
mAN I JUST WISH a world were possible where everyone treated each other with respect, regardless of if they got along or not. ;.;
Don't waste any time on being pulled into it.
I used to be that person who spent a lot of time being upset and angry about what others have done (and of course the stuff i have/haven't done)
But I've gotten tired of letting others control my emotions and the drama that usually follows it.
(I've seen the type of person i became when angry and i didn't like it so, I've decide to change myself)
I personally have never thought of you being an asshole or anything else.
While i don't know you that well, I've never seen you come off as rude/disrespectful and so on
Unfortunately, it can't be said about everyone else. there will always be that asshole or that jerk.
Step away, stay positive. Be happy.
When things like this happen, i just think to myself "Life is hard, No need to make it harder on me or any one else."
I'm sorry you've been dealing with these things and I hope it gets better for you.
(i apologize also for my rambling xD)
it's easy to do on big social sites, but you steer clear of it so uvu;;